I must admit that I miss California, but that is a given, whenever I leave California, I always miss it. Its not that Edmonton is a bad place, because it isnt, just quieter and more peaceful than the hustle and bustle of Sacramento. I guess California is one of the more unique places that I have been, people who live there are every nationality, every...
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honsolo:
i also think that where you are in canada has a efect on which type of people you meet in your area. the people say in vancover, toronto or monteal would be more mature in the areas that you just decribed. although its true that canadians have a lot less stress to deal with when they are young its a product of living in our culture, but im not to sure if we're less equiuped to go through life in gerneral, i would think that we would be ill equiped to go throug life in the USA. but i think that people would be going through the same disorientaion as you are going through right now if we were living donw there. but people would get through it regardless
honsolo:
well there very rough and i need to get a proper tripod for stuff like that. but i know you love being in canada dispite all the changes in your life and all. well at least that what you say in here at least 
im sure there has been many things that you have gone through that i could never imagine but i think all people have that to a certain extent and that what makes us all who we are and shapes us into the unique things that we are now
im sure there has been many things that you have gone through that i could never imagine but i think all people have that to a certain extent and that what makes us all who we are and shapes us into the unique things that we are nowChange is the one constant in life, and either one strives on it and relishes it, or one fights it and gets caught up in the stress of it. It is so sad that so many people hold the keys to their own life, but they sometimes refuse to use it because of the fear of what change will bring. That is the definition of...
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inkcasualty:
not that is a head full to process...in the middle of fearful change myself right now...I've found your relation in these matters quite insightful....
Friday night, a time for many of pleasantries and excitement, yet I prefer to spend this time alone. Actually I spend a lot of my time alone, disdaining social outings and get together, preferring quietness, self reflection and the many friends among my books. My interest in outings and socialization has waned over the past few years, I spend more time in my mental retreat...
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inkcasualty:
I must say i envy you outlook......I find being alone in the apartment to be damn close to hell on earth. Like anybody...I need space to work and grow etc...but lonliness...probably my biggest fear.
pinkfuckermeow:
ONCE again I am astounded by your writing. You should start looking into publishing your writings, they are very intriguing! I wish I had the GIFT that you do, seems like my ADD wouldn't allow me much of an attention span to do so, otherwise I would. This is an ART to the way that you write dear... not many books can really keep my attention for long but the ones thst do will have me glued NONSTOP until I finish it... It is the same way with your journals... WOW, I am truly lost for words... You inspire me... thank you for you WORDS they are like gold! I too agree with your theory, I have known it all too well in the past but I have to admit I never really noticed it and understood it as well as I do right now... There is just something about the TRUTH and in it knowledge and a pureness you can find no where else!!! YOU FUCKIN RAWK BABYCAAKES!!!!
x0x0 ~ PiNkY
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x0x0 ~ PiNkY
[Edited on Nov 15, 2005 9:26AM]
The snow covers the ground in a thin veil of gray and white, while causing the roads to be covered in dirt. The world here at the moment looks like a beautiful wasteland, daunting you to trek through it. I sit here trying to get my computer to connect with the internet but my tries have proved to be futile, so I type a way,...
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The Zagan Fact:
1. I am adopted and have never met my birth parents.
2. I have no clue what my nationality is, except that I am American, born and Raised in Sacramento.
3. When I was 15 I went to drug rehab for Crystal Meth.
4. When I was 16 I took a tour of Europe and fell in love with traveling.
5. I...
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1. I am adopted and have never met my birth parents.
2. I have no clue what my nationality is, except that I am American, born and Raised in Sacramento.
3. When I was 15 I went to drug rehab for Crystal Meth.
4. When I was 16 I took a tour of Europe and fell in love with traveling.
5. I...
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zanafar:
DAMN WOMAN! 
when you do something you REALLY do it! Everyone else only did 20 things
8. Yeah...I think maybe I got one or two of those too....
12.
Ive skimmed through a few of those while shelving at work. Ive seen pornos less graphic than some of those things!
14. Though Im not a S.T. fan...I really like the Borg too. They are like a Sci FI version of vampires or zombies
15. Heehee....me too
23. Hmmmm....might be a good way to get more cash....any clubs around your new home? In anycase...I really wish youd do a new set 
33 Ive never met any
when you do something you REALLY do it! Everyone else only did 20 things
8. Yeah...I think maybe I got one or two of those too....
12.
Ive skimmed through a few of those while shelving at work. Ive seen pornos less graphic than some of those things!
14. Though Im not a S.T. fan...I really like the Borg too. They are like a Sci FI version of vampires or zombies
15. Heehee....me too
23. Hmmmm....might be a good way to get more cash....any clubs around your new home?
In anycase...I really wish youd do a new set
33 Ive never met any
Old people they are really strange and somewhat eccentric in their own right. For the first time in my life have I lived Remotely near my relatives. It is quite strange the web of intrigue and gossip that goes along with living near to ones relatives. I am probably the most different of most of my many cousins all in all they are pretty normal...
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honsolo:
well alverta is a prett odd place but there are a few notable people out there.. you just have to look a lot harder to actualy find them. but canada is a pretty kewl plave to be in just wait till you come to BC for a vist.. then you will never want to leave
zanafar:
Read to much for your own good?!?! Is that possible??? 
Heehee...I think Id like your grandma....she sounds cute Im almost thinking that maybe you could talk her into getting some piercings of her own
Sucks about the van You sure your dad has nothing to do with that?????
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Heehee...I think Id like your grandma....she sounds cute
Im almost thinking that maybe you could talk her into getting some piercings of her own
Sucks about the van
You sure your dad has nothing to do with that????? [Edited on Nov 05, 2005 1:13AM]
Arrrg! I have Black No. 1 by Type O negative so stuck in my head its driving me Crazy! You can check out some of their music videos if you want to at
Type O negative
Halloween, one of my favorite holidays, was spent sitting at home drinking hot coco and dancing around like a crazed lunatic to music on my computer. Although uneventful it...
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Type O negative
Halloween, one of my favorite holidays, was spent sitting at home drinking hot coco and dancing around like a crazed lunatic to music on my computer. Although uneventful it...
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pinkfuckermeow:
YOU my LUV fuckin RAWK!!!!!!
There is something about the way that you write that keeps me drooling yeah, i know i sound LAME but you are an amazing girl and the depth to you is astounding... I LIKEY's ALOT!!!!!!
x0x0 ~ PiNkY
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There is something about the way that you write that keeps me drooling
yeah, i know i sound LAME but you are an amazing girl and the depth to you is astounding... I LIKEY's ALOT!!!!!!
x0x0 ~ PiNkY [Edited on Nov 02, 2005 3:56PM]
zanafar:
Well....if you ass is sore Id gladly try to make it feel better 
Your new home sounds really great cutie..(even though I HATE cold)
I love halloween too. My favorite day of the year and about the only set day that I look forward too Do they really have Halloween in Canada though?
Your new home sounds really great cutie..(even though I HATE cold)
I love halloween too. My favorite day of the year and about the only set day that I look forward too
Do they really have Halloween in Canada though? Vanity
Long black hair and lips so red
Staring into the mirror
Face made up like a concubine
She takes herself so seriously
Face so stern
Yet she doesnt see
The vision posed in front of me
Darling youre a freak
Shes unscrupulous and weak
Metal in her face
Yet she cannot hide what others see
That you pose and hide
You pretend and lied...
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zanafar:
Very cool
This about anyone in particular?
This about anyone in particular?
blayde:
Hey!
You haven't been online in ages... I guess you've moved now, are you having fun?
You haven't been online in ages... I guess you've moved now, are you having fun?
My More Detailed Update!
I can hear the train from here, it shakes the ground like an earthquake blowing its horn like a trumpet, telling the world to get out of its way. It runs by my house, right behind it, so that if I look out of the window I can see it like a giant centipede making its way into the city. Most...
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I can hear the train from here, it shakes the ground like an earthquake blowing its horn like a trumpet, telling the world to get out of its way. It runs by my house, right behind it, so that if I look out of the window I can see it like a giant centipede making its way into the city. Most...
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zanafar:
"All around everybody here hate Bush, and that I love!"
BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Looks like you have found a really great place to stay...sounds like paradise in fact (dispite the awful cold)
Ummmm....you might want to make some phone calls....your dad might have something to do with the van not leaving yet
I still say that you need to visit me some day
I see that Pinkfuckermeow found you....you'll like her...she is sweet
Im really glad your back cutie....I missed you
BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Looks like you have found a really great place to stay...sounds like paradise in fact
(dispite the awful cold)
Ummmm....you might want to make some phone calls....your dad might have something to do with the van not leaving yet
I still say that you need to visit me some day
I see that Pinkfuckermeow found you....you'll like her...she is sweet
Im really glad your back cutie....I missed you
Sorry that I have been gone! It has been days on the road and lots of packing! I have finally made it to Edmonton Alberta! We have moved into the house, however our moving van is yet to arrive until November 1st so I am sleeping on the floor and sitting on the ground. Thank goodness I took my lap top with me and was...
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pinkfuckermeow:
WOW!!!!! interesting journey.... u seeem to have alot going on all at once.... sounds like my life too!!!
Hey BTW......
You have any GRAND plans for Halloween yet??? I am going to be "SATAN's Whore" not that i'm not that everyday but I like the idea of just being his!!! LOL
well THANX for the add, i got your profile from Zanfar and read your journal and was i love the way you write!!!! Take care LUV!!!!
x0x0 ~ PiNkY
interesting journey.... u seeem to have alot going on all at once.... sounds like my life too!!!
Hey BTW......
You have any GRAND plans for Halloween yet??? I am going to be "SATAN's Whore" not that i'm not that everyday but I like the idea of just being his!!! LOL
well THANX for the add, i got your profile from Zanfar and read your journal and was
i love the way you write!!!! Take care LUV!!!!
x0x0 ~ PiNkY
Delirious realms of sleep etching their way into the world around them. Destiny and fate, Karma and hate, Intriguing how things always work out in the ways in which they do. I swear I have something looking out for me, It seems like people who fuck me over always get their fucking due. Hail Satan! Thats the only thing I can get off the top...
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nick667:
hey whats up
zanafar:
Where have you been lately cutie?
Words are failing me today, there is naught that I can pull off from the top of my head at this time. I never really do start out with anything anyway, the words usually just gradually come to me when I set myself to writing. I try to get myself to write at least once a day, for it eases my mind when I get...
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zanafar:
Its funny.....you say you dont care about attention and that you wouldnt mind being invisible......but people REALLY need look at you and see one of the very few SANE people in the world!!!!
Prehaps if more people were as sencible as you are this we wouldnt have so much stupid shit going on right now
You know what? I just realized why I like you so much.....your the ANTI-BUSH
Prehaps if more people were as sencible as you are this we wouldnt have so much stupid shit going on right now
You know what? I just realized why I like you so much.....your the ANTI-BUSH