I just got off... wait, let me finish... the most intense production of my life... this will be the best film I've ever made. And yet, after finishing sunch an intense film... I find myself going into a funk.
I miss the entropy. I miss this incredible bond with my actor that caused me to sob loudly and freak my entire camera crew out during one take. I miss how goddamned beautiful my actors looked in the steam room. I miss how heartbroken my actor looked and how well he took direction in the office/lab sequences... There is something incredible when you find someone who surpasses your vision... this film has been in my head now, germinating, growing, stewing for a little over a year... and the last month was all condensed preproduction and principle photography... so now I just sit back and wait to sit in and edit in January??
My producer and I got a little tipsy on woodchuck's last night... I've found a lifelong friend after all this insanity. I want her to produce all my films at Columbia.
There is no way this film isn't going to festivals. I think this could garner me some attention. I'm not blowin smoke. I'm finally where I should have been all along. It is a rare thing to see a crew of twenty or so people working their asses off to make your vision come to life.
And now I sit. And now I wait. I miss my actor and wonder how he is. It's an off kilter romance, not at all like a typical romance... I miss my producer. I miss entropy. I miss not knowing where I am in time....
now it's back to the grind. I've got work and I'm going to be late.
therese. fuck. I'm a filmmaker!
I miss the entropy. I miss this incredible bond with my actor that caused me to sob loudly and freak my entire camera crew out during one take. I miss how goddamned beautiful my actors looked in the steam room. I miss how heartbroken my actor looked and how well he took direction in the office/lab sequences... There is something incredible when you find someone who surpasses your vision... this film has been in my head now, germinating, growing, stewing for a little over a year... and the last month was all condensed preproduction and principle photography... so now I just sit back and wait to sit in and edit in January??
My producer and I got a little tipsy on woodchuck's last night... I've found a lifelong friend after all this insanity. I want her to produce all my films at Columbia.
There is no way this film isn't going to festivals. I think this could garner me some attention. I'm not blowin smoke. I'm finally where I should have been all along. It is a rare thing to see a crew of twenty or so people working their asses off to make your vision come to life.
And now I sit. And now I wait. I miss my actor and wonder how he is. It's an off kilter romance, not at all like a typical romance... I miss my producer. I miss entropy. I miss not knowing where I am in time....
now it's back to the grind. I've got work and I'm going to be late.
therese. fuck. I'm a filmmaker!
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also, if yer in the market, i have a buddy who's amazing with aftereffects. he graduated columbia a few years ago. i think he works on medical films now.