Fuckkkk I hate that I did this. Its no one's fault but my own. I royally fucked myself on this. I just found out that I have exactly three quarters left of tuition money in my fund. Thats it. With my grade point average I have right now I won't get a scholarship. (The below spoiler may be triggering for people who have cut... or had issues with self mutilation, skip over if you don't want to read it)
Because I am under 25 any grant, and scholarship normally, is based on your parents on income. My dad makes to much... its kinda fucked I realize. Oh and now that I've totally and utteraly fucked myself grades wise I am even more screwed for scholarships.
I am also getting my hours at work cut because we are over on spending. We are pretty much out of money till july. So they are cutting back on everyone hours. Well the issue is I only work 17hrs a week normally... so they cut me down to 8... um... yah... fucked. I work another job but its like I've been there for 6months. I shouldn't be getting fucked like this yah know? I mean I realize it could be alot worse considering she could be laying me off, I am very thankfull she isn't do that.
Oh joy, my neighbors have begun partying again.. I know I know because being up till 2:30 last night apprently wasn't enough...
oh and one of my friends just got put in jail for a seriously fucked reason.... take my word for it.
grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the diffrence..
Fun news? I learned to shoot a gun, heh, it was fucking rad.
