Tonight is one of those night where if I had the internet I would write a book. But since I am using my phone, there is going to be a shorter version of some of the things that went through my brain tonight. Life has a way of slaping you in the face when you think you've finally got a few things figured out. I was hoping for "fling" tonight, but things didn't turn out that way. It could have happened, but then I would have been the ass hole and hurt her. Not on purpose, but I would have used her. She basically told me she wanted to marry me. I don't know what life holds for me, but I'm pretty sure she's not the one. I say that because if I started a relationship with her I could not leave this town. I might come back here, but I am meant to leave again for a while. I also went back to see my old mentor and boss. I was in the training room for less than 10 min and all these old feelings came rushing back. I miss working at a college. I want to be back there. You could call this a change of focus in life. I have some more thinking to do, but typing on my phone is annoying. Till later.
rielle:
That's really respectful of you! I know a heck of a lot of guys that would still use a girl after knowing the girl wanted to marry them! Props to ya 
