youthdecayed

FAREWELL! tis the end!

to all the ladies
for all my homies

well, my last week starts today. i'll keep in touch with AIM. and i'll probably be at Prom.

happiness has been escaping me as of late, but things are finally coming together little by little.

I shaved my head, cleaned my room of bad memories and garbage, and organized what little i remember of who i used to be.

i could die happy, i think.

"no words today, cause they would make you pity my existence.
But i dont want your pity, or your empathy and attention."

well, i guess i officially havent quit, so im going to stop pretending.

"She seems too weak
she likes to see
She likes to think she has all of it

She likes the sound
She likes the sand
She likes to stand, she can't afford to sit

She's into guilt. Guilt"

-Nirvana "Oh, the Guilt"

still i sit at the site. im such a fuckin loser. i cant quit a website, but i walk out on every job/school class i have. well. im just updating my journal because i didnt get enough posts in my last one, and im tired of looking at the old ones.

whose going to Bonfire? fuckin a right i am. it'll probly be the last...
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Fuck it.I went to cancel my subscription, and it just let me set it to not renew. so im here for another month.

BUT!!!!!!! as i've said my good byes, i mean it. i may still show up, but im done posting/journaling/masturbating/visiting. so please email me or AIM me. I'll miss you all. stay cool man.

Blackss402
Blackss402@hotmail.com
http://syds.cjb.net

to all the ladies
to all...
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ok. maybe its my mood as of late, but i have been finding gratification through relationships (real or online) very unfullfilling, and my friendships not online have been failing as of late as well.

I guess im saying that my tenure here has expired.

To all the friends i've made, i'll miss you. im glad i had the chance to meet you all, and i...
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Im tired. so very tired........


"Nothing to say, Nothing to be,
So afraid, you walk with others feet.
Nothing to gain, Nothing to leave,
all this time has passed repeatedly.

Might as well just be me."

Again..... check out the website. tell your friends and sisters and brothers and mothers.

http://Syds.cjb.net
(if your lazy click the link under my info.)

We got done with a new demo. old shit, just great quality. Check it out.

I've got nothing more to say......

"If i die before i wake, hope i dont come back again"

EDIT: sorry if you were deceived. the songs are available for download now. there were problems in reconfiguration of the site.

SYDS

ok.....elaboration time.

We're changing the band name. official Monday.

SYDS.

Sheesh, Youth Decay Sucked!!!!

Another excuse. Trying to find the reasons to explain myself, so I dont look like the loser I really am. I just dont want you to get me wrong. I talk about things Ill never achieve, and I talk about things that are make-believe. Ive never been more of who I really am though. Just a lonely kid. College struggles. Friendless. Jobless. How can I...
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This is out of our range
And it's grown
This is getting to be
Drone
I'm a negative creep
And I'm stoned
I'm a negative creep
And ohhhh... ohhh...