Classic
I have settled into a routine throughout the week. My body cooperates. Most of the time.
The past year has made a lot of differences in when I'm tired, how and when I sleep, and when my brain and body are more and least active.
When I first wake up in the morning (which can be anywhere from 7 am to 11 o' clock),...
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Thirty-Five
I'm in a new apartment now, splitting the place with Brian & Katie. It's really nice, a drastic move up from the shithole I was living in for the past few years, sleeping on a couch and wondering if I was ever going to get out of that little box. The new place is frickin' huge. It's going to take me a while to...
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thebeliever:
You should write down the emo-horror-story you envisioned, both for your own entertainment, and for a reality-check/reminder of the b.s. we can make up in our heads as compared to actual life. 
_smurfzilla_:
Im sure you'll do fine. Youve got more common sense and brains than most people I come in contact with. Youve got good friends and people in general like you. Itll get you farther than you think. ^_^
I just hope all your stuff gets sorted out soon because when you write about it you make it sound like everything you go through isnt a big deal sometimes, but jeezus, i know i couldnt manage half the shit you do with the grace that you do. youre a tough cookie.
I just hope all your stuff gets sorted out soon because when you write about it you make it sound like everything you go through isnt a big deal sometimes, but jeezus, i know i couldnt manage half the shit you do with the grace that you do. youre a tough cookie.
Not The Man
After I got topped off with my usual one unit of B-negative, screened for antibodies (I get less complex liquids at Starbucks), I hobbled down to the cafeteria, as I am wont to do because I'm usually starving after the transfusion. I was in pretty good spirits as I ate, as I got some weird compliments earlier. When I had gotten to...
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Ebbs and Flows
I still don't know a whole lot about what's going on with my blood. I have a half-finished blog entry from two months ago that I had outlined and was all set to fill in with detail once my doctor got the test results back from the last batch they took. Something about antibodies, and how they were keeping the procrit shots...
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Spiders Inside Me
(I was looking through my old files tonight in between attempting to draw something, and came across an old Dream Diary from 2007. I've lost a ton of my older writings, actually, and what I do have is scattered fragments. I've had frequent nightmares since my mother died in 2001, long before my recent health crash)
04/24/07-
Spiders Inside Me
This morning...
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_smurfzilla_:
creepy. >_<
maybe you should write scripts for horror movies?
maybe you should write scripts for horror movies?
thebeliever:
Whatever you do, I'd avoid watching Cronenberg films for awhile. And absolutely no William Burroughs novels for you, young man!
Answers and Blatant Lies
"Yeah, well you never write me either, ya jerk." <- my answer to people 'just cleaning out their facebook friends lists', who also never talk to those people either.
"My sense of self-importance is MUCH BIGGER THAN YOURS." <- my answer to anything that person says after my first answer.
"How come you never asked me out?" "I didn't even know...
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My First Girlfriend
My father was a cattle farmer, so both before and after my parents divorce, I spent a lot of weekends being let loose to run about at a stockyard. The purpose was get out of my fathers' hair while he was wheeling and dealing in bovine futures.
These trips would follow a pattern every weekend. My father would come over to the...
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thebeliever:
Something delightfully absurd about a horse staring down a bacon sandwich... It's so odd, it can only be real life.
Brain Food
It's late at night (or early in the morning) and I'm still packing at a slow pace, in preparation for the bedbug bombing to come. I have my Multiverse File up, tinkering with it like I always do when I need a distraction to keep me going during the day. I was finishing up a 4th edition GURPS write-up of a character I...
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Correction
"Never seen it. Where you moving? There are 72 Goetic demons, not 77. 77 ain't shit for symbolism other than two 7's and fuck that. Judging from the rest of your angsty teenage blog I'd say you just about nailed the theory of Goetics if not the concepts or the mechanics. That entry was like what Alan Moore would do to Spider Man if...
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Goetic
The beginning of October, 2011.
I was laying on a hospital bed, twitching. I don't know how I got there. It was glowing and dark in the room, in my confused state I imagine the lights flickering on and off.
My skin felt cracked..like sandpaper. I couldn't speak, only growl. There wasn't any fluid left in my body for speaking, just enough to keep...
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The beginning of October, 2011.
I was laying on a hospital bed, twitching. I don't know how I got there. It was glowing and dark in the room, in my confused state I imagine the lights flickering on and off.
My skin felt cracked..like sandpaper. I couldn't speak, only growl. There wasn't any fluid left in my body for speaking, just enough to keep...
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As Good as it Gets
Yesterday I went to the Brown Cancer Center fro my usual once-every-two-weeks visit to get a refill of B neg and my monthly chat with the doctor. I had been feeling pretty awful for the past few days, moreso than I had in a while, because my blood had run lower due to the procrit experiment. I saw my Dr.,...
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thebeliever:
If I were in a similar boat, I would probably spend half my time just trying to wrap my head around the fact that this is my reality. (I guess I kind of do that now, anyways, come to think of it...) I guess the more you're able to look at things directly, the better you'll be able to grapple with them. (Tho escapism can have its charms...)
_smurfzilla_:
<3
you're one of the toughest people i know. hopefully you get some answers that are helpful. Now I want to google/wiki Alport Syndrone. Ive never heard of it before.
you're one of the toughest people i know. hopefully you get some answers that are helpful. Now I want to google/wiki Alport Syndrone. Ive never heard of it before.
Last year I completed it but didn't upload my manuscript right or something so it says I have the whole word count but I never got the completion certificate.