yetti

so i've been drinking a lot lately. and right now. and i have been getting meaner and meaner every time. in some ways i think it's my inner self hatred for people coming out. such as whenever i see or hear from anyone, i make it a point to try and make them feel like shit or make sure they never talk to me again. but then when i see a dog or other type of animal i melt and have nothing but the kindest words for them. is this normal? or am i a robot? or was i just using an excuse to use that emoticon? or to use the word emoticon? in any case. the problem i'm seeing is that i'm not so much enjoying the drinking part but the me being the meanest person i know part. is this going to pass? or am i just sick of all the shit dealt by the worthlessness of the human race?