I chose this song because it was the first one I thought of, and fuck it hahaha
Get ready is a super text, but it's important to me.
So let's start as I promised. Since I joined Suicide Girls, I've never made a post just talking about myself and my life, and how I got here, and how it really impacted my life.
Well, as you can imagine, at school I was also a girl without many friends, always alone or with a specific group of friends, the famous "nerds", and honestly I never cared, some are my friends until today, I finished school in 2014 with 17 years old, currently I am 24 years old, even the 4th of July is my birthday (in case anyone wants to give me a present). Like most children, I was bullied, because I was always hairy, my hair was huge, so I was verbally abused a lot because of my characteristics, this made me develop anxiety, because my mother didn't let me have the vanities like the girls had, so I couldn't do much, so in that same phase, I got very attached to a game called World Of Warcraft, when I sat down to play, there was nothing else, it was another universe for me, I just took refuge there and honestly I didn't even want to leave the game. I've always been the "black sheep" of the family, I've always been different from them and it's also very remarkable for those who see it from the outside hahaha.After that phase, I started going out to parties after I was 21, yes, people of 21, because my mother was very annoying and wouldn't let me go out, and with that I got to know many styles of parties, because I live in the capital of São Paulo, so there are parties here for all tastes and musical styles, obviously I met more people like me and people more open to the world, of course going out to so many places I also met bad and prejudiced people, but I was very lucky to have a wonderful friend by my side, as a good Sagittarius, she showed me all the good sides of life, and believe it or not SOBRIA, yes sober because my friend doesn't drink, I'll leave here a photo of Dona Rosália, so you can meet my best friend since the 7th year of school.
This photo was more or less when I started to go out and get to know a little more about life, Rosalia helped me free myself from many bad things I went through, today I am a totally different person, after a while leaving, obviously I made some friends, and I met a lot of people, I took Rosalia to a party called Party Of Legends (yes it was League Of Legends themed), Rosalia doesn't play LoL, but she loved the party, after a few years Rosalia knew she could join the SG, so I did a little research, saw some videos of @doce , and I decided to join, and I had Rosalia's support, so I sent it to a group of friends on whatsapp that I wanted to join SG, and in this group there was also @anddy , even she helped me, recommended me a photographer and everything else.
Unfortunately after I took my pictures with the former photographer and model from the site, she got banned from the site, so we couldn't be sending the set, after that I went after another recruiter and photographer to get into SG. And finally it happened, Anilorac appeared to me out of nowhere at the right moment, she helped me and helped me in everything, always with the greatest patience and affection in the world, so the day came when I photographed with Pisces as my first set for SG , and Pisces knowing what happened to me, was very brief with edits to help me, I will never forget that. I don't have any pictures with Pisces yet to post here, but I'll be nice and leave a spoiler: soon we'll have a multiset together.
So all right, everyone happy that I managed to become a Hopeful model, until one day Anilorac had the wonderful idea of taking a trip to Florianópolis in Santa Catarina with some girls on Halloween 2021 and invited me, and as I said, I didn't go out, my mother wouldn't let me, it would be my first trip "alone" or better among friends, I didn't know the girls, but I was very excited, I almost gave up traveling a few times because I didn't know anyone and was kind of introspective, but anyway The big day has arrived 10/28/2021.
We met at the Bus Station and on the way to the Bus Station, many things were going through my head, everything I went through and now I was going to travel "alone" for the 1st time, like a good Cancerian, I'm very emotional so I don't know how to explain what I was feeling, Little did I know that this would be one of the best trips of my life. At each stop on the trip, Ani lit the joint for us to smoke, yes, she saved me a lot. On the first day we arrived, we stayed at a hotel, where the girls took the opportunity to go to the beach, I was sleepy, because of anxiety, I couldn't sleep well, but then I rested a little and left with them, we went for a walk on the beach.
I wish I could leave our video walking on the beach here, but I couldn't attach it, so if you want to see it, just click here.
I would love to post everything that happened with the videos, because it was really cool and one of the best weekends of my life, and all this with people that until then were unknown to me, and today I have a huge affection for every 1 Everyone who knew me, saw that I'm a little weird, I'm quiet, but I'm very good with everyone when they talk to me. And with this trip I saw that it's ok to be who you are, and it's ok to be super hot, be full tattoo or post "provocative" photos society has changed, but there's still a lot to improve, prejudice will always exist and we can't upset about it. Ani has heard me vent several times, only she and I know how important this trip was to me, how much it opened my mind, how much I learned from each of the girls who were there.
That same incredible weekend, I had the opportunity to shoot for the 1st time with Anilorac, and this incredible set will be in MR in 1 week and 4 days, I'll leave a spoiler for you.
I've always been a cosplay fan, I really wanted to do a Hinata shoot, I bought the outfit in a hurry, and it came in a huge size, I felt a little uncomfortable on the day because of that and because of the wig that I cut the bangs wrong, but the result of the photos surprised me, and I didn't expect less, because Ani is very talented and like a good photographer she explores my best angle.
After this photo shoot we finally went to the party where we drank, danced, smoked weed while the wonderful WeedxFairy brought good weed for everyone to smoke together, we tried to do a live on SG's OnlyFans but the internet signal in the place was horrible so we couldn't, we just stayed in the SG. But in short, I talked a lot with some girls, and I felt very welcomed by all of them, it was like I was in a place with people I had known for a long time. Since then I've always tried to think positive, to think about those good times, the words of support from the girls and the SG community, you guys make me want to go even further and thank you for all that. Some people on this blog are not part of the SG community, but they are important pieces in my life, and that are important to me.
I'm trying to adapt to this new model routine, because everything is different for me, it was a very important decision to become an SG, because in doing so, I gave up many things, including my fear of exposing myself, my shyness, I I activated the "fuck you" for everyone who has ever hurt me and for everything they said about me, only I know everything that goes on in here, I know the size of my heart, and I also know the amazing people I have around me supporting. Just to finish, I would like to say, that even if I don't speak, I like all of you equally, I have a huge affection for everyone who was there this weekend, and I want you to know that it was the funniest Halloween I've ever had in my life, and that's all. it was possible because you were there.
Thank u @anilorac @cayra @ayaska @weedxfairy @lunalilac @ray @sunniemax @baunilha
Thank u @pisces e @anddy
Thank you for always making me feel at home with people who understand me.
@missy @sean @penny @lemon @eirenne @jacqueline
