so i moved 2 weeks ago inot a friends house. we have been friends like 6 yrs.
when i first met him he was working at a gas station in town and i was a night owl for various reasons. he worked grave yard shift and i thought he was super cute so i would go in at 2am for an excuse to see him. eventually i got a job there and i found out he had just started dating a girl i knew from high schol. they ended up getting married and we stoped hanging out. i had a kid and life gets busy. we have crossed paths here and there. he is now getting divorced and selling his house, but in the mean time i needed a place to live until may when i move to the city with my best friend.
so it turns out i forgot how much i like this dude. our brains work the same and its unerving. we have had an enourmous talk about how we both very much like each other. there is this rediculous electricity between us. honestly, i adore him. but now is not the time. he is moving......to chiliwak......the place ive been fucking planning on moving to for the last 3 years. i had anouther 3 or 4 years to go. this may be sped up to one.
we are not acting on our emotions in a physical way. he is just geting out of a marriage and i just moved into the house with my 4 yr old son. this was not the purpose of me moving into this house. i just needed to get away from my lounie bin sister who was smoking in the house and lying about it. (cliff note, my son has been outta that house for 2 weeks and is now off his inhailers. WEIRD) but we stay up everynight talking way later than our schedules should really allow. my chest gets tight just thinking about him.
life is interesting.
wish me luck on a few fronts. being able to keep the physical desires at bay. being able to handle him leaving. being able to handle a year until i move to BC. sigh
its all very intense. and interesting. who knows what will happen or where things will go. but its interesting to injest in any event.
i am so happy being outta that house anyways. its so lovely here. the energy is so fabulous. i feel like me
when i first met him he was working at a gas station in town and i was a night owl for various reasons. he worked grave yard shift and i thought he was super cute so i would go in at 2am for an excuse to see him. eventually i got a job there and i found out he had just started dating a girl i knew from high schol. they ended up getting married and we stoped hanging out. i had a kid and life gets busy. we have crossed paths here and there. he is now getting divorced and selling his house, but in the mean time i needed a place to live until may when i move to the city with my best friend.
so it turns out i forgot how much i like this dude. our brains work the same and its unerving. we have had an enourmous talk about how we both very much like each other. there is this rediculous electricity between us. honestly, i adore him. but now is not the time. he is moving......to chiliwak......the place ive been fucking planning on moving to for the last 3 years. i had anouther 3 or 4 years to go. this may be sped up to one.
we are not acting on our emotions in a physical way. he is just geting out of a marriage and i just moved into the house with my 4 yr old son. this was not the purpose of me moving into this house. i just needed to get away from my lounie bin sister who was smoking in the house and lying about it. (cliff note, my son has been outta that house for 2 weeks and is now off his inhailers. WEIRD) but we stay up everynight talking way later than our schedules should really allow. my chest gets tight just thinking about him.
life is interesting.
wish me luck on a few fronts. being able to keep the physical desires at bay. being able to handle him leaving. being able to handle a year until i move to BC. sigh
its all very intense. and interesting. who knows what will happen or where things will go. but its interesting to injest in any event.
i am so happy being outta that house anyways. its so lovely here. the energy is so fabulous. i feel like me
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rin:
ha!! i forgot about that. yay witchy jewelery<3