yeahexactly

So things are improving slowly, not really the way I had hoped, but still improving.

Its really weird because I feel like I'm becoming a recluse (sp?)

I know the difference a day can make, but I just don't feel that day coming anymore.

I'm at the point where I know I'm alone, and while I want someone else there, I'm not sure I want to put forth

the effort to go find someone. I've just had rotten luck and it seems foolish to continue kicking this dead horse.

It seems I just don't have that certain quality that makes people stick around.

I feel like a creep when ever I try and start a social interaction.

the rules have changed, and not in my favor.

anyway depressing shit aside

I've been enjoying spending time alone, listening to my body, and following my stream of thoughts.

Also trying to put back together the pieces of my heart has been quite time consuming.

I'm looking into taking some classes relatively soon.

Everything is still kind of up in the air.

I just want to wake up somewhere else.

some where beautiful

and at some point with someone beautiful.

I don't really think its so much to ask.