Last year I awoke in her arms
This year I awake, half stoned as the telephone rings.
Its a well wisher, calling to congratulate another year down.
A year ago today was full.
Today empty and alone i lay in my bed with music on to cover my tears
and pills meant to help cage a beast that doesn't want to let me near 24.
My depression runs rampant today as i remember all of the things we had
I left and put on my mask, but this jubilant robe of lies was easily spotted for a ruse.
This is the same bed where we once held each other.
this bed, this apartment is a coffin.
I blocked out the lights to help you sleep,
It helps me not to notice that i've wasted away another day.
If this room were water tight i would have drown three times over by now.
I am a keel-less ship floating around in the darkness
just hoping to hit something hard enough so i don't limp away from the wreck.
from this heartbreak there are no survivors.
happy fuckin birthday right?
what on earth am i doing with my life?

This year I awake, half stoned as the telephone rings.
Its a well wisher, calling to congratulate another year down.
A year ago today was full.
Today empty and alone i lay in my bed with music on to cover my tears
and pills meant to help cage a beast that doesn't want to let me near 24.
My depression runs rampant today as i remember all of the things we had
I left and put on my mask, but this jubilant robe of lies was easily spotted for a ruse.
This is the same bed where we once held each other.
this bed, this apartment is a coffin.
I blocked out the lights to help you sleep,
It helps me not to notice that i've wasted away another day.
If this room were water tight i would have drown three times over by now.
I am a keel-less ship floating around in the darkness
just hoping to hit something hard enough so i don't limp away from the wreck.
from this heartbreak there are no survivors.
happy fuckin birthday right?
what on earth am i doing with my life?

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erinrob:
this is really well written
riese:
Wow, you really mean business! Its a great blog but very sad.... hope your ok!