yawg

Been awhile since I've updated this....

Life's been kind of sucky for me lately. Not so much anything that's happened but rather my attitude. I spent my weekends in July helping my friends Lauree and Angelo move into the house they bought up island and now that they are so far away ( at least with my limited transportation) I'm feeling lonely. So what do I do? Start drinking like a fish and doing drugs again. Really fucking smart.

That all came to a big stop two weeks ago after a 24 hour run in which I spent $300 and had nothing to show for it but a sore nose and a splitting headache. Having managed to save my job I decided enough was enough...I really don't want to die quite yet. What is really frustrating is that I'm pretty much back where I was three years ago when I got myself sraightend out the first time only now less of a support network which means I have to keep myself clean, not relying on activities or people. I'm really hoping I'm up to this because I honestly don't know if I am.