yarzonum

oh, boy.
sometimes (amazingly not more often) being a procrastinator bites me in the ass.
i've had a certain medical concern for about a year now and only recently have i done anything about it. much to my dismay, however, the problem seems to have progressed to the point where i need surgery. and i'm fairly certain it will be expensive. granted, i do have pretty decent health insurance, but even still...
had i done something about it a year ago, the procedure needed at that point would have been much easier and much less costly.
i'm such a fool sometimes. there just always seemed to be a more pressing matter. and the really sad part of it all is that i actually researched the condition pretty extensively months ago and knew very well the possible repercussions (medical and financial) of not getting the matter resolved expediently.
worse off is i've told no one about it yet. why? pride, i suppose. at this point, at every point.
worse still is the possibility that the issue may be much worse than predicted at which point concerns about inconvenience and cost fly out the window.
and my family...oh god. as many hospitalizations as there were this year among them, i can't stand the thought of having to worry them anymore. that's really what i'm worried about...
on the bright side, however, my g.p. didn't seem too worried!
i'll make my appointment in a couple weeks.
plus, i have an amazing week of holiday fun with family and friends to enjoy.

to the new year--may i be less of a dumb ass!
ray.