yarzonum

One day I will change my depressing profile pic. But today is not that day.

I so love Depeche Mode.

That is all.
Ray.

It's time to make some changes.

In many ways this year has been extremely challenging for both me and my family. My faith and confidence was definitely shaken. Self-doubt and doubt in others became a normal thing. Through it all, though, we stayed together, broken relationships were reconciled, and those with health problems (myself included) found solutions. Deep-seated issues/delusions were brought out into the open...
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in recovery mode now. much stronger. skin graft is looking really good and healthy. donor site is looking decent. shoulder is stiff, though. i hope it's "normal" in two weeks--that's when i start working again.

man, it's been a strange couple months.
the first two months were pretty boring, but that's cos i was on pain killers and sleepy all the time. watching t.v. started...
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wednesday was the big operation to remove the thing that should not be. or rather, the thing that should have never gone unchecked for so long. but it's out now along with a sizable portion of my shoulder. pathology results should be ready by monday, at which point i'll know whether they need to cut out anymore.
until then i've got a lovely wound vac...
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got a super awesome trip to austin coming up.
visiting my best friend jesus and some others.
going to a bunch of art shows/parties.
to meet "cool" people, eat, and drink.
apparently, that's the thing to do there...
so, i'll partake.

possibly getting sick.
hopefully nothing to do with the meds i'm taking.
time for some vitamin c.
zinc.
etc.

besos.
ray.

cancer.

well, it could be worse.

it's super rare and "just happens." awright!
high recurrence rate. eh.
but rarely spreads and few die from it. yeah!

major surgery is in store...
but hopefully we can shrink it down some.

the medication i'm taking now has some rather unpleasant side effects. it'll all be worth it, though, if my condition improves. fingers crossed.

on the bright...
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shit shit shit.

ray.

oh, boy.
sometimes (amazingly not more often) being a procrastinator bites me in the ass.
i've had a certain medical concern for about a year now and only recently have i done anything about it. much to my dismay, however, the problem seems to have progressed to the point where i need surgery. and i'm fairly certain it will be expensive. granted, i do have...
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i just finished going over organic chemistry as prep for taking the mcat. and looking back on it, i think i need to go over it again. grrrr! on the other hand, i've got a much better grasp on the subject than i did when i took the course almost ten years ago. but that really isn't saying much cos this recent review revealed that...
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it's kind of funny realizing what i do for a living. i cook. i feed people i don't know (mostly), sometimes with a smile, some politeness, and a little charm, the result of which is a slightly less anorexic bank account.
and it's so strange to me given my intentions upon starting at my place of employment. "it's just temporary, for the summer, until i...
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finally it really feels like fall. cool, sorta dreary; light and pleasant rain--the kind of weather that breeds good sleeping. i mean the kind of sleep where the dogs can bark all they want and it's all good cos you're snug in your bed, curled up fetus-style, and loving that cool pillow your thoughts are sinking into.

sounds boring, but i get a little excited...
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