*sigh*
I woke up only 12 hours ago, and I have to be at the doctor at 9:30am for my ankle. It's really just so I can get another physical therapy prescription and a note so I can reactivate my gym trainer sessions. I'm doing alright, but I need to stretch it and get the knots worked out of my muscles more so it can fully strengthen and heal.
The copay for this is going to suck though. I still have very little money, so it looks like I'll be buying another loaf of bread to eat for the week, along with a couple of chicken cutlets I'll be defrosting. Being poor and it debt is no fun, but I'll survive. I'll be getting my tax return in a few more weeks, which is a few thousand, so that will pay off one and a half of my two credit cards. I have until November to pay off the second one before the interest on it kicks in.
I need more toothpaste and body wash! Nuuuuu! I have like 3 week's worth left maximum. Poopies. Speaking of, I also have to buy more cat litter real soon. Those girls come before anything I need.
Oh Oh!! I'll be meeting with a friend of my father's friend on Wednesday, to talk about indie films. He also may me interviewing and recording me too about current trends and things I'm into. For example, I'm sure he's going to ask me about the video gaming world, and the bizarre gory Japanese movies I've been getting more into (RoboGeisha, Tokyo Gore Police, etc). He's going to be giving me advice and maybe if he likes me and is charmed enough by me, I could work with him. Maybe be in something he's creating. It's definitely a nice place to start. I'm only just beginning to become really serious about acting, and this is a great first step. I'm so new, that I don't even have head shots yet. But they'll be coming soon, and coming free! I love my friends.
I also Facebook messaged Alex's girlfriend a bunch more today, and I'm so happy we get along. She seems cool, and we definitely have a bunch in common. At least I feel that so far. Uh oh Alex.....uh oh....He's not going to like that....especially bc we want to have a bad horror movie marathon and since she's gone to school for film (b4 changing to become a teacher I believe), and I'm going to school for film/acting, we are already talking about collaborating. I'd love to make some movies and shorts with her. It would be totally awesome. I can't lie, I would enjoy for this to make my ex feel all sorts of awkward and bad about it, but then it would hurt my getting along with the girl, so I don't wish for it to happen. But I know it will at least a little bit. And when it does, I hope it doesn't make her not want to work together. Whatever, right? I won't start to worry about it until it actually happens. So yea...she's cool in my book. I knew she would be. And she told me she was worried I'd hate her! Haha no way. I'm 22, not 12.
I also met up with Jerry today to talk about where we stand. Like I've said before, I ended things with him, but we're still trying to remain at least friendly. Today went pretty well, despite a few tears escaping on my part. lol, I'm getting choked up right now just thinking about something he had said about me, which is true. Sometimes the tone in my voice has some attitude and it makes it difficult to get along with everyone. It's not as bad as it used to be, but it'll never be totally gone. I grew up on the defensive, bc even my own friends made fun of me when I was really young. So you have to understand where the near unseen (to me) attitude comes from. But yea, it hurts when I'm told that I upset other people, because most of the time I really don't mean it. Most of the time! haha
I definitely want to keep a friendship with him though. Or at least I would like this relationship to fade nicely if it had to. I don't want anymore ex drama in my life. And we were barely going out. We had no title (although we hung out a lot and he slept over many times), and I only met him like a week before Christmas 2010.
Funny thing, he told me that he read some of my entries on here (HI JERRAH!) and told me how I had that whole rant about an old ex bf, but barely said a word about him (good or bad). I really don't have all that much to say about ya. I've known you for barely the blink of an eye, and you haven't done anything to piss me off. Just that sound you make when you're searching a thought or a website. I hate it! XD How can I speak poorly of you and your Val Kilmers?! I just can't...at least not at this point.
When I say Val Kilmers, I'm speaking of his lips. They're very similar to the sexy Kilmer's and I love 'em. hahaha yeap.
Funny..I started this entry at the same time I posted last night's.
I NEED TO SLEEP!!!!!!
I woke up only 12 hours ago, and I have to be at the doctor at 9:30am for my ankle. It's really just so I can get another physical therapy prescription and a note so I can reactivate my gym trainer sessions. I'm doing alright, but I need to stretch it and get the knots worked out of my muscles more so it can fully strengthen and heal.
The copay for this is going to suck though. I still have very little money, so it looks like I'll be buying another loaf of bread to eat for the week, along with a couple of chicken cutlets I'll be defrosting. Being poor and it debt is no fun, but I'll survive. I'll be getting my tax return in a few more weeks, which is a few thousand, so that will pay off one and a half of my two credit cards. I have until November to pay off the second one before the interest on it kicks in.
I need more toothpaste and body wash! Nuuuuu! I have like 3 week's worth left maximum. Poopies. Speaking of, I also have to buy more cat litter real soon. Those girls come before anything I need.
Oh Oh!! I'll be meeting with a friend of my father's friend on Wednesday, to talk about indie films. He also may me interviewing and recording me too about current trends and things I'm into. For example, I'm sure he's going to ask me about the video gaming world, and the bizarre gory Japanese movies I've been getting more into (RoboGeisha, Tokyo Gore Police, etc). He's going to be giving me advice and maybe if he likes me and is charmed enough by me, I could work with him. Maybe be in something he's creating. It's definitely a nice place to start. I'm only just beginning to become really serious about acting, and this is a great first step. I'm so new, that I don't even have head shots yet. But they'll be coming soon, and coming free! I love my friends.
I also Facebook messaged Alex's girlfriend a bunch more today, and I'm so happy we get along. She seems cool, and we definitely have a bunch in common. At least I feel that so far. Uh oh Alex.....uh oh....He's not going to like that....especially bc we want to have a bad horror movie marathon and since she's gone to school for film (b4 changing to become a teacher I believe), and I'm going to school for film/acting, we are already talking about collaborating. I'd love to make some movies and shorts with her. It would be totally awesome. I can't lie, I would enjoy for this to make my ex feel all sorts of awkward and bad about it, but then it would hurt my getting along with the girl, so I don't wish for it to happen. But I know it will at least a little bit. And when it does, I hope it doesn't make her not want to work together. Whatever, right? I won't start to worry about it until it actually happens. So yea...she's cool in my book. I knew she would be. And she told me she was worried I'd hate her! Haha no way. I'm 22, not 12.
I also met up with Jerry today to talk about where we stand. Like I've said before, I ended things with him, but we're still trying to remain at least friendly. Today went pretty well, despite a few tears escaping on my part. lol, I'm getting choked up right now just thinking about something he had said about me, which is true. Sometimes the tone in my voice has some attitude and it makes it difficult to get along with everyone. It's not as bad as it used to be, but it'll never be totally gone. I grew up on the defensive, bc even my own friends made fun of me when I was really young. So you have to understand where the near unseen (to me) attitude comes from. But yea, it hurts when I'm told that I upset other people, because most of the time I really don't mean it. Most of the time! haha
I definitely want to keep a friendship with him though. Or at least I would like this relationship to fade nicely if it had to. I don't want anymore ex drama in my life. And we were barely going out. We had no title (although we hung out a lot and he slept over many times), and I only met him like a week before Christmas 2010.
Funny thing, he told me that he read some of my entries on here (HI JERRAH!) and told me how I had that whole rant about an old ex bf, but barely said a word about him (good or bad). I really don't have all that much to say about ya. I've known you for barely the blink of an eye, and you haven't done anything to piss me off. Just that sound you make when you're searching a thought or a website. I hate it! XD How can I speak poorly of you and your Val Kilmers?! I just can't...at least not at this point.
When I say Val Kilmers, I'm speaking of his lips. They're very similar to the sexy Kilmer's and I love 'em. hahaha yeap.
Funny..I started this entry at the same time I posted last night's.
I NEED TO SLEEP!!!!!!
xxxholic:
Hope your money situation gets better. Good luck!
prettynpunk:
I know how the $$ situation goes, sucks so bad. Good luck with the interview with your father's friend - it's all about who you know, and it'd be awesome to get your foot in the door somewhere.