Wow another week already. In the spirit of blogging more im just going to ramble a bit. Maybe vent a little but we'll see where this takes us. Lets all get to know me more shall we.
My interests are vast and change constantly. I guess thats the easiest way to describe me. I have a never-ending thirst for any and all information that when i see something new or get into something different Im all in but its always short lived. I will do research and read about the new interest or do it all day every day if it's a new activity and then, eventually, I burn out or lose interest. This could take days or even months to years. Rarely do i ever go back to this thing or activity though. I know something else will come along.
Sadly as i get older i have realized I do the same with people. I eventually lose interest and sort of drift away. There have been those rare handful of people who I am still friends with today but they are not that commom. I was asking my wife the other day "what makes someone a BEST friend?" My longest time knowing someone I have known for close to 25 years but there are big chunks of my life he doesn't know and will never know. Such as the fact I am/was bisexual. Being married 17 years and faithful makes that a mute point in my life today but he will never know i have had sex with men. Then there are people i tell that too the first day we meet. Who is the better friend? I surely cant say. I guess whichever will help you out no matter what. Thats the friend i try to be. Any person i have ever been close to at some time, even though we drifted, can call me anytime, day or night, with an emergency and I will drop everything to come to their aid. Not sure how many of those people would reciprocate but thats the person i am. Some of them would, and already have, but i do wonder how many.
I only talk about it because im in need of a new good friend. I suppose a lot of us are. I have my wife and she truly is my best friend but i need that purely platonic friendship for when i need to escape my family. It's rare but c'mon we all have felt that way i think. Just a few hours even can be enough. Its not easy meeting new people, especially a 37 yr old married man who moved 400 miles away from everyone he knew. The only people i talk to outside my family are coworkers and budtenders. Sometimes i go in to buy weed already high and talk to them for an hour or more. Heck I even smoke alone because i know nobody and my wife is a non smoker. Thats one goal for 2018. Get super fucking baked with someone new. Lol we all have our goals in life.
Well this blog took an interesting turn. Thats where a little weed and a 30 minute bus ride will get you. Looking forward to my walk home. Maybe I will snap a shot later if the weather stays good. Been having a rather warm dry winter here in Portland. Its still early though so i probably just jinxed us all. Anyway thanks for reading.
Much love
Yaoth