SG Homework: If you could go back in time and change one thing from your past what would it be?

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I apologize in advance for the sad blog.

On my first day at high school, I met a boy. We were both really shy and introverted, so it took a while for us to trust each other, but we soon realized we had much in common. We talked a lot about books and music, played chess or just sat on the parking lot reading in silence.

After 3 years of friendship, he asked to talk to me in private. He then told me he was in love with me and leaned in for a kiss. I didn't know what to do, so I backed away, said "I'm sorry" and ran back to class. After that we hardly spoke for the rest of the year.

We got in the same college, but I was too embarrased to look for him, even though he was always on my mind. It took me over a year to get the courage to go looking for him. However, it was too late. After weeks of asking around and talking to strangers, I found out that he had passed away a few months before. Only then I realized I was in love with him.

I'm okay now, but sometimes I find myself wondering what could have happened if I didn't have backed away from that kiss.

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pokerg33k:
i was thinking about this the other day... for me it would have been to have the courage to end a relationship i had and start a new one with the "one".  Unfortunately i didnt have the balls, though I tried, but didnt follow through.  It was hard back then.  It felt like i was hurting people that didnt deserve.  At the end, everybody got hurt, but know I have a beautiful family I wouldnt trade for anything in this world.  So i guess things happen for a reason. I dunno, this is a complicated question lol.   
azerack:
It's sad to hear that story, however I hope that now you look at life and try to be more brave. I think you could think of him watching you and being happy when you were brave and believed in yourself and trusted your feelings. As long as he is in your heart, make that be something you use for your present and future. :-) 

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