So since I'm still relatively new on here I thought I would share with you all what the past decade has been like for me. Now as your about to read I'm no saint, I'm not proud of some of the things I've done. I've had addictions, seen the deepest depths of hell, and felt at times that I just wanted to end my own life because of depression. But through it all i would like to think that I've become someone worth knowing and that for people going through similar problems that there is a light at the end of all that darkness. So thank you for taking time to read this.
2010:
It weird to think that this was 10 years ago. I was 18 been living in my own flat for a couple of months and for the first time felt free. But I think a little to free. All I did was party just about every day. By this time I all ready was suffering with bad depprision and not being alone and going out and partying I thought it would just go away, but in fact it made it worse. I couldn't tell you one day from the next and in 2011 it would only get worse.
2011:
So the parties never stopped and soon alcohol wasn't enough. Along with mental health issues I also had a lot of physical health issues. And at party I ran into someone that could get me strong pain killers for very cheap. So I started mixing drugs and alcohol and looking back on it was one of the worst things I could have done. At the time I felt great but it really started to take toll on me. So eventually I decided to move back home and get the help I needed. And the decision to move back home wasn't something I wanted to do as my mum's place was very toxic place because of my then stepfather. Things were alright for a time until the night I found my stepfather trying to strangle my mother. And as expected I totally lost it and beat the shit out of him. Things would never be the same again.
2012:
Things progressively got worse at home and I really didn't know how much longer I could go on. I think some times the only thing that was keeping me going was that I knew if I wasn't around that things would only get worse for my sister's and brother.because after all thats what a big brother should do protect their siblings no matter what. I had also really let myself go and just didn't feel great at all.
2013:
By now I knew I had to get out of home again because I couldn't keep living like I was. And in April one of my mates was looking for someone to live with so I ended up moving in with him. And i thought that most of my problems were behind me, but a couple of weeks latter I lost one of my best friends to a stroke at the age of 48. And it ended up being one of my biggest motivations for turning my life around. I didn't want the time he had spent on me to be for nothing and continued to work on my self throughout the rest of the year.
2014:
I felt great at the start of 2014. All the hard work I was putting in was paying off. I was working as a removalist and on top of all that my mum finally left my stepfather. I was so happy because I knew my sister's and brother would be able to finally live in happiness. They also moved to a new town which I would also move to by the end of the year.
2015:
The first 3 quarters of this year were great. I was living in a new town, and I was just super happy with how my life was going. Then in late October i suffered at the time my worst injury. I tore the meniscus in my right knee which would require surgery to fix. Surgery I wouldn't get until April next year.
2016:
So as previously mentioned I needed surgery on my knee(only key-hole surgery luckily enough)but wasn't getting it done until April. So I was just sitting around waiting for the time to come. Finally after 6 months of waiting I had the surgery and could already tell the difference. Unfortunately they could not reattach the meniscus so they had get rid if it. Which ment I could no longer play sport's and that bummed me out a lot.
2017:
This year I decided I was going to study and more qualifications in information technology since I also had a love for that. And by the end of year I had completed the course and decided I was going to go on and do more advanced stuff(like networking).
2018:
The darkest year of my life. It started out great I was told there was a job for me in teaching if I wanted of course I accepted. And it's kind of strange how life works out some times because when I was in high school I actually wanted to become a PE teacher I just didn't have the money to go to uni so I never followed that path. Now I was going to teach information and technology as well as some robotics. But a horrible time was waiting for me. Now I have written a blog about this here MORTALITY so I'll just give short version now. Essentially I was having health problems and I had a liver biopsy done which ended up causing an internal bleed. The surgeon who ended up stopping the bleeding said that he had never seen someone both so unlucky and so very lucky at the same time. And the rest of that year was spent slowly recovering and by the end of the year I was almost back to full health.
2019:
Compared to the year before this year was pretty tame. I was really enjoying working as a teacher and seeing the joy I brought to people especially the kids made so happy. After everything I was finally doing what I felt like i should have always been doing. I also was on my way to becoming a fully qualified teacher which is hard work but will definitely be worth it
So that's It a look back on my past decade. I hope you enjoyed reading this as I have enjoyed sharing all this.❤🖤❤