xzombiex

its no secret that xkillerx and i met on here nearly 2 years ago now and i was thinking about how we started writing comments to each others journals and leaving messages for each other, at the time i worked nights and when i got home in the morning the first thing i would do was go on line to read my messages and there would always be one from her so i would reply. things progressed very quickly for us.

i miss the emails and messages we would send to each other and the excitement of rushing home to read them and replying, but then i think to myself its pretty much the same now, i rush home from work to walk in through the front door and see her sat on the couch with the laptop on her lap and it always makes me smile and reminds me of how lucky i am to be with her. i think back to my marriage and i can honestly say i never felt that way, the marriage faded very quickly and in hindsight we should never have got married, but we did and things went sour quickly and ended after only 2 years of marriage. i am so lucky now to have someone who respects me and treats me fairly and doesnt expect me to do everything, also someone who doesnt nag me or keep me under the thumb as i was in my marriage. i am looking forward to haveing Alice as my wife and will be proud to call her mrs Jennings.

why if i love her so much and adore her do i find myself getting stressed and annoyed with myself, i dont feel i treat alice quite the way i should, i tihnk i should do more for her and stop being so fucking lazy around the house and with our finances, i hate myself for doing this and i am trying not to let things get to me and not to take things out on alice,

any way enough of my rambling, time to go