xylan

As the year curls up on its tail and slumbers to rest, another one springs from beneath its legs. And so another year full of dangling strands, unmet expectations, and pleasant surprises closes itself upon me. I'm one New Year's older, and oddly enough, I feel somewhat new. My mind is clearing up more and more, and I've managed to stop reveling in my thoughts.

I've said bye to many old friends and rekindled relationships with many old friends. The pleasant memories of those lives I've touched and those who have touched mine sit deeply in my heart. I know there are those who I haven't kept in touch with but that doesn't mean those are not in my thoughts.

I know I don't say this enough but I am forever grateful for the friends I have, and am truly blessed because of that. Even when the darkest of days soak my soul with sorrow, their gift of hope is the light keeps me going. This light, a cultivation of many little sparks - blessed gifts bestowed upon me from my friends' hearts, grow to become a fire inside. With that I will become the best I can be, or maybe I already am, but I am just still disatisfied and yearning to outdo myself. Regardless, they have given me such strength to make it through some unbearable days, and I and duly grateful for such blessings in my life.

People say you don't know what you have till it's gone. I say you know you have it, but you just take it for granted. Thus, I try to not take anything for granted...from my friends, to family, to the air I breath to the roof over my head. I am happy that my heart still palpitates, my lids still blink, and my legs still walk. This earth is wondrous, we must enjoy it while it lasts, and I'm doing my best to enjoy this world...