SO I don't know what is going on with me lately. 
Ever since I have returned home I have noticed my clothes fitting tighter and I don't like it. I have never thought of myself as a skinny girl and I have never been one. 
I gained 10-15 lbs in CO because people kept feeding me. they kept telling me I NEEDED to eat I was to skinny....but I was happy.....and I can't say no because I am nice 
And I wasn't sticking to my normal routine which will fuck anyone's weight up. And with all the death I was facing at the time it is no wonder I didn't sit down with a pound of bon bons and eat my self to death.
I never have really suffered from a weight roller coaster. Except when I lost over 40 lbs due to stress. My DR has only requested once in my life to lose weight ( when I was 175 lbs.
...yes at 5'2" I was a size 18 now I am barely a size 8...they are tight ...when two moths ago I was a size 5)
So i am giving up soda. Snack food that isn't fruit or a veggie. And most starches. It will be better for me to eat that way anyways. I ALSO started running.
I am going to run my way up to 5k. And this is all to better my attitude and outlook. And be a healthier me. 
Please don't think that this blog is a cry for attention. It just feels good to get it all out. how I feel about myself. and how I want to make it better. I have to set goals and keep them,
On the plus side the distractions I have had from working out are fun too. I have made a new friend for life and he makes me feel better about myself and who I am as a person.
And a lot of my sg friends would disagree with this blog. But it is how I feel inside. I like myself better 15 lbs lighter...so treadmill and a better diet are in order. 
ON A BETTER NOTE!
I am going to have company tomorrow if it doesn't rain! I am going to be making ratatouille for lunch/dinner. and going to the beach with my new favorite friends. And I can't wait and hope mother nature is on our side.
Sigh
To better feeling days
Ever since I have returned home I have noticed my clothes fitting tighter and I don't like it. I have never thought of myself as a skinny girl and I have never been one.
I gained 10-15 lbs in CO because people kept feeding me.
they kept telling me I NEEDED to eat I was to skinny....but I was happy.....and I can't say no because I am nice And I wasn't sticking to my normal routine which will fuck anyone's weight up. And with all the death I was facing at the time it is no wonder I didn't sit down with a pound of bon bons and eat my self to death.
I never have really suffered from a weight roller coaster. Except when I lost over 40 lbs due to stress. My DR has only requested once in my life to lose weight ( when I was 175 lbs.
...yes at 5'2" I was a size 18 now I am barely a size 8...they are tight ...when two moths ago I was a size 5)
So i am giving up soda. Snack food that isn't fruit or a veggie. And most starches. It will be better for me to eat that way anyways. I ALSO started running.
I am going to run my way up to 5k. And this is all to better my attitude and outlook. And be a healthier me.
Please don't think that this blog is a cry for attention. It just feels good to get it all out. how I feel about myself. and how I want to make it better. I have to set goals and keep them,
On the plus side the distractions I have had from working out are fun too. I have made a new friend for life and he makes me feel better about myself and who I am as a person.
And a lot of my sg friends would disagree with this blog. But it is how I feel inside. I like myself better 15 lbs lighter...so treadmill and a better diet are in order.
ON A BETTER NOTE!
I am going to have company tomorrow if it doesn't rain! I am going to be making ratatouille for lunch/dinner. and going to the beach with my new favorite friends. And I can't wait and hope mother nature is on our side.
Sigh
To better feeling days
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wildseven:
NoooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOooooooooOOOoo.
technology:
I'm so sorry about your dog Xy..