EXHAUSTED!ok ok......it has been a while
I am STILL looking for a job and it SUCKS!!!! I will be house sitting soon for an artist friend of mine soon. His dog also needs dog training....so that is coming up in OCT. my garage is a mess...I started kind of cleaning it.....clutter for days.....why do I need all this shit....scratches head....but every time I get the shit down and go thru it I can't bring myself to throw anything away. I am NOT a pack rat, and I organize it as much as i can. So I am going to have a garage sale.....going to be selling a lot of old clothes they don't fit anymore and kitchen crap that people get me and I never use...like a bread maker....dehydrator....food possessor! And random dishes that I have never used in the ten years I have lived here. That should take care of most of it...I also have a treadmill ha ha! Used it once lol! Now it holds laundry! Sigh what else......
Drama-
I have a friend that isn't worth my time or energy.... I go out of my way and see her....even invite her over to do game nights.....excuses every time...except Christmas and Halloween....which is when we throw huge fests of fun..and presents...yes even on Halloween...door prizes candy and food like you wouldn't believe...I am kind of bummed that it isn't happening this year...but now job since June makes you cut back on a lot....(not having Halloween this year going to be house sitting.....)
Let me get into the drama a bit more....(I am going to be having a sit down with her on Sunday to let her know I no longer desire to be friends) She is sick, and needs help and this is the LAST thing I want to do, because I am one of the ONLY people she can count on...She has called me because friends have ditched her, girlfriends are cheating, you know normal friends shit..(when she feels like picking up the phone) ...Now when EVER i call for the prior years (before current girlfriend) I would leave messages, asking how she was doing..NO ANSWER BACK!!!...I would have to swing by unannounced...because if I did tell her I was coming...like PLAN me coming over...She was to tried...to drunk...or just was never home when we MADE PLANS TO HANG OUT!!! yes this friend as DITCHED ME!!!!.....this went on until about a year ago..then her current girlfriend (who is scared of Chrissy!) picks up the phone and we have talked and bullshitted, but Chrissy wants nothing to do with me ALL OF A SUDDEN!!!!..SHE NEVER PICKS UP THE FUCKING PHONE!!!! EVEN WHEN I KNOW SHE IS THERE!!!!! WHY IS IT SO HARD TO TALK TO ME.....then.....Just wait.....I find out from the current girlfriend that Chrissy (just going to use names to many pronouns) HAS HATED ME SINCE 99!!!!! WTF!!! YOU LAME ASS BITCH! REALLY DID YOU HATE ME WHEN I PICKED YOUR ASS UP AT 430 IN THE FUCKING MORNING (I had to work that morning in GILROY at 830 am!) IN SANTA CRUZ AND DROVE YOUR ASS HOME TO SALINAS......(I live in the middle of the two) THE WHOLE CAR RIDE YOU WERE TELLING ME HOW BAD YOU WANTED TO FUCK ME!!!! RUBBING MY THIGH and breathing your stank breath on me!!!! HOW BAD YOU WANT MY TITS IN YOUR FUCKING MOUTH!
OR When you called me when you got arrested for the DUI! Who drove you around let you live here rent FREE! Who...you know what..fuck it I don't care anymore.....your going to live without me in your life....I just hope you get the help you need.....I have been hurt by your for the last time...and friends come and go all the time....
Sigh.....drama....sorry guys...I don't normally drop the f bomb unless I am really upset... Just needed to get it down....get it out....i can't wait till sunday when i tell her how much she hurt me....
I do want to say...THANK YOU to all my friends who have been there....for my mind and for my sanity....
Anything else???? I am babysitting a lot for a friend, and my computer got a virus....ha ha! That is what i get for sharing without protection ha ah!!!! Crashed the thing and rebooted it all back up and everything WORKS NOW!
On to brighter days~! Ok Ok One more!!! ha ha!
This one was taken on Saturday when I went with friend to do a dress fitting ha ha!