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I don't think I'll be blogging on here for a while. I'm tired of explaining the same thing over and over and over again. It's annoying.

I'll explain AGAIN. But then I think I am taking a break.

I am a Disabled American Veteran. The government has to make sure that my health needs are taking care of for the rest of my life.

I am service-connected for Bipolar Disorder and migraines. I also have social anxiety disorder.

This all means: I HAVE a social worker and a psychiatrist. I have said this already. I am being taken care of. If I was ever in immediate danger, I would be in good hands.

Seeing a therapist and taking medications doesn't cure bipolar disorder anymore than taking insulin cures diabetes. The disease remains. The issue is managing the disease so I can live a comfortable life.

Bipolar disorder is not an easy disease to treat for psychiatrists because everyone is different.

It is very rare that you can remove ALL symptoms without turning a patient into a zombie, making them sleep all day or causing them to be obese. The goal is to make the patient as comfortable as possible.

Some people are so uncomfortable and in so much pain that the will take the option of sleeping all day. I refuse.

There was a well known medication that DID remove all my symptoms but also gave me side effects that resembled what you would go through if you were having or have had a stroke. Not fun.

There are some many different versions of the disorder and everyone is different. I have what is known as rapid-cylcing bipolar. Which means that I cycle through various degrees of depression and mania EVERY DAY or every couple of days, instead of every few weeks.

Medication and therapy can only go so far to curb that and it can sometimes take a very long time to figure out what meds work.

When I post blogs about my moods, I am VENTING. It's something I need to do to survive.

I'm not saying don't care. I'm not saying ignore me. I'm just saying don't get overly alarmed. What I go through is a part of my life for the REST of my life and it often passes. I'm okay. Seriously.

If I was suicidal or in danger, I would be taking care of.

I don't need people suggesting I need professional help LITERALLY once a week, when I HAVE the BEST professional help that I could possibly get and I know myself and I KNOW what I am doing.

I'm supposed to be shooting my set on Friday. We'll see what happens.