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I've been soooo bad at blogging lately but reasonably good at journalling. I guess there's only so much writing/thinking about life that I can deal with at any given moment. Two weeks ago, I was in Rhode Island with my beautiful cousin who is about 6 years older than me and much much more wise in the ways of the world. She shared a secret with me that is shocking but seems to be true: Men don't really care if you are nice to them. In fact, men seem to only settle down with and marry women who are actually very mean to them. My entire life, every relationship I've ever had, whenever we get into a fight, I would be internally screaming at myself because I didn't want to cause my partner any pain or discomfort but my cousin's revelation has peaked my interest. I decided to do a little experiment. I decided that the next time my boytoy and I got into a fight, I would try the 'mean' approach. Now, before you get the idea that I decided to swear at him or make fun of him or fight dirty, let me assure you this is not the case. 'Nice' means trying to compromise, admitting your faults and apologizing profusely. 'Mean' manifests itself by demanding he be accountable for the mistakes he made, no apologies granted unless he apologizes first and by realizing, above all, that I can easily replace this particular cock with another cock. I am sad to say that he responded beautifully to my 'mean' approach and very poorly to my 'nice' approach. 'Nice' comes across as 'weak' and we all can't help but hone in for the kill. 'Mean' garners respect. I think, at the end of the day, it really comes down to cultural gender differences. I was always taught that demanding things was so unladylike. Now, I am seeing that a demand that is based on defending your self-worth is really the only way to interact with all others, not just boytoys or husbands or boyfriends or what have you. Very odd. I feel like I've gone a little further down the rabbit hole...and I'm enjoying it immensely.