i tried to put a picture of my new tattoo but it wont let me 
its in my attachments i got swallows and they are pretty
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alright soo things have been quite rough lately I havent been well physically and most of all emotionally.... Christmas had some depressing moments but i wont get into to that too long and i want to make this entry short and bitter... soo my psych doc is an ASS which is now why he is now my EX psych doc.... I have been having many...
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perilouspup:
so... are you currently on 2 benzodiazepines or 1? is the klonopin replacing the xanax even though the xanax worked in the past?
your doctor sounds like a shitty bartender. the whole scratching your appointment today when you are feeling "crazy" is not nice. i think they do that entirely to avoid contact with any hostility or desperation. maybe if he just listened to you in the first place, you wouldn't have this problem.
drive safely. and keep track and release your records so you don't ever lose track of the process of this ordeal. hope you start feeling better soon.... :hugs:
your doctor sounds like a shitty bartender. the whole scratching your appointment today when you are feeling "crazy" is not nice. i think they do that entirely to avoid contact with any hostility or desperation. maybe if he just listened to you in the first place, you wouldn't have this problem.
drive safely. and keep track and release your records so you don't ever lose track of the process of this ordeal. hope you start feeling better soon.... :hugs:
kaleidoscopic:
Hey hon,
I'm sorry you've been having so many troubles lately. And seriously I can relate (my self destructive exploits and chronic struggles with the mental health establishment are well known
)
I know it seems like it will never end but if you can get a halfway decent doc who will listen to you, they can fine tune the meds faster and get you on your way out of hell. Seriously, you have to stand up for yourself, which can seem hard because many docs act like "you're crazy and I'm the expert and I know everything." But they don't. And if you're gonna be stuck in a trial and error system you want to be sure that the person in charge of the trial actually listens and reacts to what's happening in your life. Sometimes it helps to write down the symptoms you're having so you can be sure not to forget anything. And if something gets really wonky, hound them. Waiting for the next monthly visit while stuck in something unbearable should always be a last resort. (Unfortunately it cannot always be avoided...as I'm finding out when no one wants to help me because I moved and don't officially have a doctor in town yet. Meanwhile I'm having unbearable symptoms
.)
Seriously if your family doc will help up godspeed (mine won't. some won't. grrrrrr)
I know how hard it is to hear that you have to wait while the meds start to become active, but it is true that you will get through it. There is another side to it, I promise. It may FEEL like there isn't but there is.
Take care of yourself and hang in there. If you really need to vent you can PM me. I can't promise I'll get back right away (it might be a day or two) but trust me I've been there for 9 years so I've seen a lot of this stuff and I have a pretty good capacity to listen and give what advice is possible.
I send you tons and tons of hugs!
I'm sorry you've been having so many troubles lately. And seriously I can relate (my self destructive exploits and chronic struggles with the mental health establishment are well known
)
I know it seems like it will never end but if you can get a halfway decent doc who will listen to you, they can fine tune the meds faster and get you on your way out of hell. Seriously, you have to stand up for yourself, which can seem hard because many docs act like "you're crazy and I'm the expert and I know everything." But they don't. And if you're gonna be stuck in a trial and error system you want to be sure that the person in charge of the trial actually listens and reacts to what's happening in your life. Sometimes it helps to write down the symptoms you're having so you can be sure not to forget anything. And if something gets really wonky, hound them. Waiting for the next monthly visit while stuck in something unbearable should always be a last resort. (Unfortunately it cannot always be avoided...as I'm finding out when no one wants to help me because I moved and don't officially have a doctor in town yet. Meanwhile I'm having unbearable symptoms
.)
Seriously if your family doc will help up godspeed (mine won't. some won't. grrrrrr)
I know how hard it is to hear that you have to wait while the meds start to become active, but it is true that you will get through it. There is another side to it, I promise. It may FEEL like there isn't but there is.
Take care of yourself and hang in there. If you really need to vent you can PM me. I can't promise I'll get back right away (it might be a day or two) but trust me I've been there for 9 years so I've seen a lot of this stuff and I have a pretty good capacity to listen and give what advice is possible.
I send you tons and tons of hugs!
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candykydfairy:
tis adorable! 
i hope you're doin swell!
i hope you're doin swell!
candykydfairy:
really though....when we gonna hang? 
hey to all who cares and reads this... soo things still are shitty been trying to hang in there but depression is still getting the best of me... halloween is my favorite holliday right... well i got an awesome cute costume but did i even wear it or do anything for halloween this year???NOOO and that makes me sad.. my birthday is less then a...
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punknitemike:
it sucks that things are rough for you, hopefully things will get better! if ya need somebody to talk to or somethinng, dont hesitate to hit me up!
perilouspup:
Not everything has to be Pleasantville, I'll admit that I really don't talk about a number of things that enter my mind or aspects of my life I don't feel great about. And it does become a knee-jerk reaction when someone asks, to say that you're okay.
Can anything be done to lift your spirits right now?
hello to all just wanted to give a quick update.. doing a lil better got some new meds anxious to see how they work.. wish me luck its always scary when they change stuff
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punknitemike:
i hope you get to feeling better with your new meds soon!
candykydfairy:
hope all is well cuteness!
reality has just knocked me down...things do hit you once you see the picture wow
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primrosepathos:
how have you been. i hope youre doing good. sorry if i offended you at all.
tommytwotone:
we hope everything is ok
punknitemike:
thats a super cute tattoo!!!
you should come to the cookout at Pammy's on sunday, a bunch of us will be there!
you should come to the cookout at Pammy's on sunday, a bunch of us will be there!
lone_figure:
That is a sweet tattoo!
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So I have been trying to deal get past somethings in my life right now and it seems that i just cant... Everyone says time will make it better... but it hurts just the same.. Its been about a year now.. they have moved on and i still havent.. i hide how i feel because i dont want to be something else...
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So I have been trying to deal get past somethings in my life right now and it seems that i just cant... Everyone says time will make it better... but it hurts just the same.. Its been about a year now.. they have moved on and i still havent.. i hide how i feel because i dont want to be something else...
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veina:
((HUGS)) I know that nothing I say will mend your heart... so I just want to send you lots of Hugs!! (and boobies pressed on the window when dan is not looking!!))
tommytwotone:
do you think you might be able to make it to my and PAMMY's cookout? Check the Dayton-Cincy group for details.
That tattoos so gorgeous!
I can't wait to get my ink done. Sigh...in March!
I miss you too and I hope you are well. Hang in there.
hope things are getting better