xxsullen_girlxx

WARNING EMO POST.........
So I have been trying to deal get past somethings in my life right now and it seems that i just cant... Everyone says time will make it better... but it hurts just the same.. Its been about a year now.. they have moved on and i still havent.. i hide how i feel because i dont want to be something else they have to worry about.. I dont want to feel this way I want to be over it I want to let them go i dont want to be in love with them... but yet i still am and i honestly dont know what to do... its hard watching them move on to someone else as i sit here thinking of how good it once was and how quickly i lost it... I lay awake and wonder.. does she worry about his issues when he is sleeping... does she make sure he eats his tums before eating something that will burn him.. does she wake up next to him in the middle of the night and hug him and know how lucky she is and how i would die to be in her spot for just one night... does she know how much he misses his kitty... does she make sure he takes his allegra when his allergies act up... i hope she takes care of him... i hope she knows what she has and how im lost without him.. I sometime have dreams of him like were still together and wake up knowing there not true... eveyone says youll be fine its just going to take awhile its just a phase... well im not fine and it has been awhile and i know its not a phase... I wish i could of been better, prettier skinnier anything other then me I wish i could be her because then he would want me... i wish i had a second chance... i guess ill keep wishing