Excuse me while I sit here and finally catch my breath.
I've been ridiculously busy lately with work, readings, essays (oh God the essays...the never-ending list of uninteresing things to write pages and pages about...), and major exams. Obviously, I haven't had much time to myself.
Nothing very exciting to speak of. I'm recovering from an over-load of critical/analytical readings that deal with sexuality. It's...
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I've been ridiculously busy lately with work, readings, essays (oh God the essays...the never-ending list of uninteresing things to write pages and pages about...), and major exams. Obviously, I haven't had much time to myself.
Nothing very exciting to speak of. I'm recovering from an over-load of critical/analytical readings that deal with sexuality. It's...
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I was walking back to my house yesterday when, before I even got off campus, it started to rain.
Actually, let me clarify a bit--a huge storm rolled in fast, it began to pour and lightning was ripping across the sky in every direction. There was no helping it, I had to walk through it on foot.
And God was I glad to have a...
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Actually, let me clarify a bit--a huge storm rolled in fast, it began to pour and lightning was ripping across the sky in every direction. There was no helping it, I had to walk through it on foot.
And God was I glad to have a...
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bringherheart:
oh then
i stood up in my gold skin
and i beat down the psalms
and i beat down the clothes
and you undid the bridle
and you undid the reins
and i undid the buttons,
the bones, the confusions,
the new englad postcards,
the january ten o clock night,
and we rose up like wheat,
acre after acre of gold,
and we harvested,
we harvested.
i stood up in my gold skin
and i beat down the psalms
and i beat down the clothes
and you undid the bridle
and you undid the reins
and i undid the buttons,
the bones, the confusions,
the new englad postcards,
the january ten o clock night,
and we rose up like wheat,
acre after acre of gold,
and we harvested,
we harvested.
bringherheart:
Car stopped in a clearing,
Ribbon of life, it was nearing.
I saw the boy break out of his skin.
My heart turned over and I crawled in.
He cried, Break it up, oh I don't understand,
Break it up, I can't comprehend.
Break it up, oh, I want to feel you.
Break it up, don't talk to me that way,
I'm not listening.
Ribbon of life, it was nearing.
I saw the boy break out of his skin.
My heart turned over and I crawled in.
He cried, Break it up, oh I don't understand,
Break it up, I can't comprehend.
Break it up, oh, I want to feel you.
Break it up, don't talk to me that way,
I'm not listening.
So me and a couple friends of mine who're girls were at a local coffee house last night going over school nonsense and catching up on our required readings. At least that was the theorized plan that we all knew was a lie because we do nothing but distract one another--that sorta thing.
Anyway, so inevitably the topic of relationships came up. Inevitably because one...
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Anyway, so inevitably the topic of relationships came up. Inevitably because one...
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kitsuneluvsyuki:
that does make sense, but i'm kinda the opposite. if i am away from someone, it makes me more desperate to be with them and make the relationship happen. one of those 'wanting what you can't have' things. i'm great at those 
kozmikgirl:
Here is the lyrics to one of my favorite songs. It is all about what we have been talking about. You must download this song... asap...
I can't be
Losing sleep over this
No I can't
And now I cannot stop pacing
Give me a few hours
I'll have this all sorted out
If my mind would just stop racing
Cause I cannot stand still
I can be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening
This is over my head
But underneath my feet
Cause by tomoroow morning
I'll have this thing beat
And everything will be back
to the way that it was
I wish that it was just that easy
Cause I'm waiting for tonight
Been waiting for tomoroow
I'm somewhere in between
What is real
Just a dream
Would you catch me if I fall
out of what I fell in
Dont be surprised if I collapse
down at your feet again
I don't want to run away from this
I know that I just don't need this
Cause I cannot stand still
I can be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening
Cause I'm waiting for tonight
Been waiting for tomorrow
And I'm somewhere in between
What is real
just a dream
~Somewhere Inbetween by Lifehouse
I can't be
Losing sleep over this
No I can't
And now I cannot stop pacing
Give me a few hours
I'll have this all sorted out
If my mind would just stop racing
Cause I cannot stand still
I can be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening
This is over my head
But underneath my feet
Cause by tomoroow morning
I'll have this thing beat
And everything will be back
to the way that it was
I wish that it was just that easy
Cause I'm waiting for tonight
Been waiting for tomoroow
I'm somewhere in between
What is real
Just a dream
Would you catch me if I fall
out of what I fell in
Dont be surprised if I collapse
down at your feet again
I don't want to run away from this
I know that I just don't need this
Cause I cannot stand still
I can be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening
Cause I'm waiting for tonight
Been waiting for tomorrow
And I'm somewhere in between
What is real
just a dream
~Somewhere Inbetween by Lifehouse
When I was younger, Dippin' Dots Ice Cream had a slogan on their sign: "The ice cream of the future."
Nowadays the sign just says, "ice cream".
Welcome to the future, people
-Ronin
Nowadays the sign just says, "ice cream".
Welcome to the future, people
-Ronin
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kitsuneluvsyuki:
thanx doll 
kozmikgirl:
"over analized induced supe'ah freakout shenanagins"
...yes, I am using that term from now on... I really like it.
My supe'ah freakouts seem to have come to a close... for now... we'll see how the rest of the week goes.
On a good side, times like these are certainly NOT boring!
...yes, I am using that term from now on... I really like it.
My supe'ah freakouts seem to have come to a close... for now... we'll see how the rest of the week goes.
On a good side, times like these are certainly NOT boring!
I tell ya, my mind is a tempest. It just never stops, never slows down, and seems to practically work independently at times, always grinding away at and killing all of life's mysteries as best it can.
I have absolutely no idea what it's like to think about nothing. Haven't even the smallest clue what that might be like. My brain just absorbs everything around...
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I have absolutely no idea what it's like to think about nothing. Haven't even the smallest clue what that might be like. My brain just absorbs everything around...
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So this guy who's staying at the hotel I work at pulls me to the side at one point to ask me what the best strip clubs are in town--no big, I get it a lot.
But he stretches it out to make sure to include details about how his wife's a big pornstar and blah blah sex, yadda yadda boobs, whatever. And it seemed...
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But he stretches it out to make sure to include details about how his wife's a big pornstar and blah blah sex, yadda yadda boobs, whatever. And it seemed...
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kozmikgirl:
I think too much too. Right now I am busy analysing everything this one guy has ever said to me to try to figure out if he is interested in me really, or if he is just a flirty kind of guy. Please help me, I think my brain is about to explode. 
anaxarete:
ooooo xXRoninXx you know this is right up my alley.
i totally feel that my guy and i have this kind of relationship. whatever it is that keeps us together feels like it comes out of childhood insecurities.
he thinks i dont really like him, that i'm looking to get out at the first opportunity.
i think he really loves me but one girl isnt enough for him so he's looking for attention at every given opportunity
sometimes though i realize that my guy is not the asshole caricature that i think he is
and
he's really cute
i totally feel that my guy and i have this kind of relationship. whatever it is that keeps us together feels like it comes out of childhood insecurities.
he thinks i dont really like him, that i'm looking to get out at the first opportunity.
i think he really loves me but one girl isnt enough for him so he's looking for attention at every given opportunity
sometimes though i realize that my guy is not the asshole caricature that i think he is
and
he's really cute
I love the rain.
-Ronin
-Ronin
kitsuneluvsyuki:
yer such a cutie
yer such a cutie
I've never had the two girl fantasy. It's just never done anything for me. Apparently I'm the ony man in existence who feels this way.
Seriously though, I can see the draw of it--2 boobs good, 4 boobs better. But I've only got two hands and I like to savor things.
I could go on and on with reasons and what-not but I suppose it...
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Seriously though, I can see the draw of it--2 boobs good, 4 boobs better. But I've only got two hands and I like to savor things.
I could go on and on with reasons and what-not but I suppose it...
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kozmikgirl:
I really was wondering if guys could be like that. I always have this deep down fear that I am the only one getting the meaning behind the sex... but that is probably more my paranoid paranoia then it is an actual vibe from the men themselves. 
kitsuneluvsyuki:
i get more meaning out of snuggling than sex, myself. but i'm a weirdo. not in a bad way, but i definitely have strange views about sex and morality and all that jazz. i'm extremely liberal. and i don't really believe in love.
sorry if that was too much sharing
sorry if that was too much sharing
People should read this
Heh, if anyone ever wants to argue man is above beasts, I'd have to say, "not by much."
We're just more efficient beasts.
-Ronin
Heh, if anyone ever wants to argue man is above beasts, I'd have to say, "not by much."
We're just more efficient beasts.
-Ronin
Ok, so, everybody I assume is familiar with the various scientific (and sometimes not-so-scientific) laws that govern our known universe. Well, much akin to Murphy's Law, I've developed my own Law which I'm calling Novak's Law and possibly something more creative than that later on.
It's essentially this:
"That everything in existence is ridiculous and if a person thinks about anything in existence long enough,...
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It's essentially this:
"That everything in existence is ridiculous and if a person thinks about anything in existence long enough,...
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kozmikgirl:
Yeah. When I first started reading your journal I thought "sex & genitals" first. Ha ha ha... funny you mentioned it in the next paragraph.
When I think of sex & genitals it gets pretty stupid silly. I hate when I do overthing sex & kissing & genitals & stuff... kinda ruins the mood for me... ha ha ha
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When I think of sex & genitals it gets pretty stupid silly. I hate when I do overthing sex & kissing & genitals & stuff... kinda ruins the mood for me... ha ha ha
[Edited on Mar 09, 2006 4:42PM]
anaxarete:
anything? anything?
what if you've thought about something.... lets say global warming .... enough so that it make me want to kill myself....
keep going, right?
how long from suicide to absurd
5 mins?
5 days?
5 years?
we found our cat btw, he's fine
what if you've thought about something.... lets say global warming .... enough so that it make me want to kill myself....
keep going, right?
how long from suicide to absurd
5 mins?
5 days?
5 years?
we found our cat btw, he's fine
I'm drunk an pissed off at the world.
kozmikgirl:
I am sober & disappointed in the world.
anaxarete:
ok, now its weds
i doubt you are still drunk, though you be drunk again.
i wonder if you are still pissed off at the world?
i think i probably spend 5% of my time pissed at the world. thats not too much time, right?
i doubt you are still drunk, though you be drunk again.
i wonder if you are still pissed off at the world?
i think i probably spend 5% of my time pissed at the world. thats not too much time, right?
1. Seven things to do before I die:
1) Finish getting my PhD
2) Travel abroad, take in other cultures, visit (or at least see) interesting people
3) Finish writing the books I've started (and hopefully be asked to write more...)
4) Get more into film directing and production.
5) Figure out if relationships are /really/ ever worth it.
6) Not die before I can...
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1) Finish getting my PhD
2) Travel abroad, take in other cultures, visit (or at least see) interesting people
3) Finish writing the books I've started (and hopefully be asked to write more...)
4) Get more into film directing and production.
5) Figure out if relationships are /really/ ever worth it.
6) Not die before I can...
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anaxarete:
5) Figure out if relationships are /really/ ever worth it.
c'mon, you know you're really a romantic.
of course they are worth it.
coincidence?
i'm busy too and compusivly filling my time on this crazy website