xxmonsterxx

is it wrong that i've been talking to my ex? i crashed at her apt last night after we stayed up drinking and watching '40 yr old virgin.' she recently parted with her bf b/c he 'needed space.' fucking fag. anyway, i know b/c of how our relationship ended that there's probably no chance. but we haven't talked in a while, its been almost 2 yrs since we broke up and i do think we've both grown up. plus there were circumstances that surrounded out relationship that doomed it from the start but have since been rectified. obviously, you can tell, i still really care about her and i feel rather deeply about it. i'd really like to try again. maybe we just needed 'space' or to get away from each other for awhile. plus she runs in a different crowd than i do. but, we get along really well. jesus, am i just deluding myself and walking straight into another let down? you ever feel like you let the best thing in your life walk out the door and were too stupid to realize it at the time?

despite the semi (and probably premature) happiness i'm feeling about this, i'm feeling usually depressed this weekend.