xxjcblackheartxx

i am feeling better....though I hope it's not fleeting. I think i may need to start talking to someone...i haven't since my brother bernard was killed. I think this might help me become normal.....I am apprehensive to get medicated seeing how this was the answer my parents gave me when i was a child to all my emotinal woes....i try to avoid self medication as well but lately i feel like its been helping...... I have been talking to Carina a lot lately which has been helping ....i am glad to have friends that actually give a shit about me....all of my other friends seemed to have moved on with there lives....not that there is anything wrong with this....but she is always there for me no matter where she happens to be in life....and i really appreciate this...

I have been trying to take a new profile pic for like 3 days....
though i am not photogenic nor can i work a camera ....these two things work well against me.....
i am off to sleep, waking up at 0440 ever morning takes its toll...