xxfragilexsoulxx

This has been one of the worse days of my life! I got a call at about 1pm today from Mellisa. Vanessa , one of my best friends in this entire wourld commited suicide last night. I donn't even know how to react to this. I've called her voicemail like 500 times just so I could hear her voice. I'm falling apart. I don't want to accept it! I can't even think of going to a concert anymore without her being there with me hitting on ever girl that walks by. Or the stupid jokes she tells when she gets really nervous. God! HOW FUCKING SELFISH COULD HE HAVE BEEN! not only did she leave me here all by myself but she left her 2 yr old son. WTF was she thinking! Aeden is alone now. He has no one. He was everything to her! God damnit! i can't talk anymore...