Monday Jun 21, 2004

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wow.i.made.it.to.23....im.impressed.maybe.
ill.make.it.to.25...sorry.i.havent.been.
around.much.after.vanessa.killed.herself.i
went.into.a.mild.depression.i.think.im.alright
.now.though...see.ya.all.around!
ash:
happy bday hun! I saw the baloon on my friends list. smile

I havent been much of myself lately either. If Im not happy or in a good mood I try to stay offline. No use getting everyone else down, ya know?

My deepest condolences abt your friend, Im sorry I didnt say that sooner, but with my own crapola going on, its hard to be there for others. frown
tatum:
Happy birthday smile

I'm so sorry to hear about your friend. I'm glad you're better now though.

Thursday May 27, 2004

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This has been one of the worse days of my life! I got a call at about 1pm today from Mellisa. Vanessa , one of my best friends in this entire wourld commited suicide last night. I donn't even know how to react to this. I've called her voicemail like 500 times just so I could hear her voice. I'm falling apart. I don't want...
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niobe:
I am sorry for your loss! frown Much love sent your way!
mattbavougian:
here's a group you might enjoy / find usefull
Piercing Professionals

Tuesday May 25, 2004

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I recently had the most wonderful conversation with someone, It was nice to be able to talk to someone so much like like me again. It's a rare thing to find someone you can actually talk to for hours and hours and never get bored of them.

Anyway....Sorry for some reason I had to say that cause I've been really depressed lately and this person...
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blyss:
I love the desktop you made and the choice of picture....

thanks smile

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
blyssfull
tatum:
Look at you with all the girlies talking to you wink

You know you can call me whenever you want if you still have my cell phone number. I realized I don't even have yours tongue

I hope you have a lovely day at work tomorrow! *hugs*

Monday May 24, 2004

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Gah...m depression has lead me back into the world of the internet...I am once again a slave to the cyber world. Blah!

I hate it when this happens! When I start enjoying the net so much that I start replacing things from online with things in real life. Friends for example. I've seemed to have replace all the friends I lost in real life with...
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mnislahi:
its ok.. i ment that for everyone wink kiss
ash:
I was really happy to read your post, or maybe not. I was just happy you understood me, thats all. I didnt mean that I was happy that you were depressed. Im tired of depression, too. I have tried all the meds and ... ya know, there is no fuckin happy pill to take the pain away. Life just hurts and it will always hurt as long as you're alive.
Im gonna post ,y next sample, baby, you aksed for it!! Ill try to take it easy because I dont wanna make it impossible for you. So lets see how this goes. wink

Thursday May 20, 2004

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You know...you never truly understand how increadibly alone you are till you actually spend time alone. I know that sounds fucked up. But if you think about it, its really not. You know, if your life is full of shit happening like work, school, a band, cooking, cleaning, bills that kinda shit you never realize you are alone. Mainly because it doesnt really matter you...
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instarsia:
yes i totally have seen you at PRN. alot actually! wow. thanks for saying hi smile
ash:
hehehe, hun not everyone is as cool as you are. the last one was easy because of all the complaints I had that the RIVERS one was way too hard. and yeah, it was ... but thats why it was so very very amusing and impressive to me that you got it. that was the point, so I could be blown away. and it worked. will it work agn? lets see ... this next one goes out to you. come by sometimes and figure it out. smile