xxdistortmexx

As posted on myspace, here is my decision:


This is going to come as a total shock to some of you.
And I hope everyone reads this.
But..
I'm coming home.
Not to visit, but to stay.
I'm transfering to Marshall University. Still going to be studying photography and all that - just at home.
Now, before you start getting on my ass for abandoning AIP, let me explain.
For the past week I have cried myself to sleep every night. I am homesick. But that's not why I have decided to come home. AIP's schedule (all year round) is extremely stressful, and though it is good that they drive you into the ground, it's also emotionally trampling me. As all of you know, I am clinically diagnosed with Bi-polar Disorder and am on medication for that reason.
Since I have been here my condition has worsened intensely, to the point where I have lost all fire or will to do anything at all, and am feeling physically sick. I have had to have my medication upped, plus I've had to start taking an additionaly medication for panick attacks, which have returned to me as of late.
Let's face it - I may have thought I hated South Point, or Huntington, or Ashland - the whole area.... but really, we all just take the place for granted. It's home and you don't realize what it meant until you've left it behind for a period of time.
I won't stay there after I graduate, I still have plans of moving to FL, but for now I would like to be there.
The cost of living here is terrible, I do not have time to hold a job because of my major which takes up all my time. It is almost essential that you have a job if you want to survive here. I have probably spent over three hundred dollars this quarter (only ten weeks) buying supplies for photography. The school pretty much rips you off as far as money goes. Not to mention I should be paying seventy five thousand dollars to be here. Being at home will save me and my parents (who struggle with money anyway) an enormous amount of cash.
So please - understand.
I will still be successful. It really doesn't matter what school I go to, what matter is my quality of work. I know I am a good photographer. I have many connections at home as far as showing and selling my work. I will be the big famous photographer everyone thinks I will be. I promise all of you that. I can do that with any type of art education.
Understand this is for my health and my finances.

I hope no one is disappointed in me.
I know I can still go far.

I love all of you, and see you soon.