xxanastasiaxx

I am convinced I will never sleep like a "normal" person again.
I am starting to hallucinate
detoxing is highly overrated
and i still have this weird eye twitch
I am sick of water and miso soup
think I will go back to copious amounts of coffee,
pills, booze, sugar, Djarum's, red meat, sex and addictive relationships..
I can live with my addictions
lack of sleep I cannot.

more later...

morning of 5/15 update-
Feeling a bit better today, I got 6 hrs of sleep, WOO HOO!
It's better then the 3-4hrs I have been getting
so for that I am happy.
and I am not seeing gnomes out of the corner of my eye anymore..
don't ask people..yesterday was a strange day
I apologize if i wrote in your journal yesterday
and made no sense.
I was deliriously tired.
and I am kind of a dork
but I think most of you know that by now.

My neighbor who called animal control and had my dogs taken away, keeps walking back and forth in front of my house.
He is probably trying to see if I got my dogs back.
It is taking every OUNCE of control I can muster
not to go out and kill him!!
he cost me so much money and heartache..
If I go outside I will lose it on him..and there is no one around to pull me off of him, so it's probably not a good idea..
Hope everyone is having a GREAT day!