A Night Without The Meds....
Sounds like a horror film!
So, here's the deal. My Fibromyalgia medication has REALLY been fucking with my reality matrix. Funky dreams, bringing up repressed memories, hallucinations, the WORKS! So, Since I started taking a bunch of other meds yesterday for other various illnesses (possibly even pneumonia), I decided I really wanted to try to stop my fibro medicine for a week. I wanted to know if they were actually doing anything for me other than fucking my brain 24-7. That much fucking makes you a little tired, ya know?
I tried to not take it yesterday night. My new pills were really messing with my Girds (Gastro-intestinal reflux disease). My insomnia hit me again. So did the aches and pains of the Fibro. I lie up all night, tossing and turning, too tired to get up and take another antacid. Miserable explains it pretty well.
...BUT...
Today I start with my new Psychiatrist, and hopefully a new medication. I know he really can't do much for my Fibro, but the med I'm on now IS a tricyclic antidepressant. He may know of a better one for me to try. Elavil is kicking my sorry ass.
I got my hair cut last week. And dyed it. It's gorgeous! Think a bright turquoise neo-punk mullet with enough hair in the middle to chunk and play with, and long bangs and burns. I'll be posting pics once my husband gets back with my camera... I didn't realise just how bad of a Cam-whore I am until I didn't have mine for a whole month! lol.
I'm having withdrawals! Oh no!
My girlfriend Jess gave me a belated birthday present... Horray for sex-toys. haha! She used to sell Ann Summers stuff out of her house, and had a shitload of free merchandise sitting around unopened still. So I reaped the benefits. And yes I've tried them out... Speaking of which... two other topics I wanted to blurt out...
1. Why the FUCK can't I FUCK like a normal person? I mean, I get turned on once in a great while, and I FEEL sexy at least once a day (Unless I've got the flu or something)... But when it comes to the act, EVEN ALONE, I can't perform. It's rather dismaying. More so I'm sure for my partners... although really my husband is the only one who seems to have trouble getting me there... Well, and me.Even with all of the cool new toys, I'll get close to orgasm and then I'll plateau and it's like my body shuts completely off. It's really a bitch.
2. Anyone else get a chance to see Hannibal Rising yet? OMG! If you get the chance I seriously think you should. Let's put it this way... I'm a serious movie critic. Every movie I see, I pick apart and utterly destroy. Either the actors are wrong or the scripting sucks, or god forbid, they went WAY under the budget a film of their intensity or hype would demand... But in this case, it made it's way PAST nearly every other movie I've EVER seen... and is only surpassed by the Labyrinth for my favorite film of all time. I already identified with the Hannibal character from Tom Harris's books, and of course the ensuing films. I thought "This looks okay, but nobody can outdo Hopkins. It Can't be done..." BOY WAS I WRONG... And now, the second name appearing on my 10 people I'd fuck no questions asked list... is Gaspard Ulliel. SO fucking hot... as to make me want to make an aggregious spelling error and say he is HOTT (with 2 Ts)... He may have won himself the TOP position... but Steve Buschemi will always be at the top of the list...
You know how awkward it is to be getting all hot and bothered with your mother-in-law sitting mere inches away? I'm just glad I don't have a bulge in my pants! (Poor Crash...) While the Labyrinth movie itself wasn't nearly as amazingly done, I have had a lifelong interlude with the characters, many of them earning permanent places in my subconscious. For example, Ludo pops up every once in a while when my dearest friends or closest family are in need of my emotional support. Hoggle comes out quite often nowadays with his nigh-reclusive self-centered manner. "Hoggle is HOGGLE's friend" kind of feelings. Sara as in the movie character, not so much. Don't get me wrong Jennifer Connelly is an okay actress, but let's face it... she's NOT Sara. I find myself liking the fanart and non-authorized literature much more than the film. It's not so much the movie that sits on that top rung for me, as it is the whole fantasy and embodiment of Froud's world that I love. ... That said, perhaps Hannibal Rising HAS taken the #1 place... Let's just say I had to take a hot bath, light some candles and play with my Chilly Willy...
Okay, I'm off for now. The real world (and a 3 hour drive to and from my DR) beckons... Wish me luck...
And WATCH THE MOVIE!
Sounds like a horror film!
So, here's the deal. My Fibromyalgia medication has REALLY been fucking with my reality matrix. Funky dreams, bringing up repressed memories, hallucinations, the WORKS! So, Since I started taking a bunch of other meds yesterday for other various illnesses (possibly even pneumonia), I decided I really wanted to try to stop my fibro medicine for a week. I wanted to know if they were actually doing anything for me other than fucking my brain 24-7. That much fucking makes you a little tired, ya know?
I tried to not take it yesterday night. My new pills were really messing with my Girds (Gastro-intestinal reflux disease). My insomnia hit me again. So did the aches and pains of the Fibro. I lie up all night, tossing and turning, too tired to get up and take another antacid. Miserable explains it pretty well.
...BUT...
Today I start with my new Psychiatrist, and hopefully a new medication. I know he really can't do much for my Fibro, but the med I'm on now IS a tricyclic antidepressant. He may know of a better one for me to try. Elavil is kicking my sorry ass.
I got my hair cut last week. And dyed it. It's gorgeous! Think a bright turquoise neo-punk mullet with enough hair in the middle to chunk and play with, and long bangs and burns. I'll be posting pics once my husband gets back with my camera... I didn't realise just how bad of a Cam-whore I am until I didn't have mine for a whole month! lol.
I'm having withdrawals! Oh no!
My girlfriend Jess gave me a belated birthday present... Horray for sex-toys. haha! She used to sell Ann Summers stuff out of her house, and had a shitload of free merchandise sitting around unopened still. So I reaped the benefits. And yes I've tried them out... Speaking of which... two other topics I wanted to blurt out...
1. Why the FUCK can't I FUCK like a normal person? I mean, I get turned on once in a great while, and I FEEL sexy at least once a day (Unless I've got the flu or something)... But when it comes to the act, EVEN ALONE, I can't perform. It's rather dismaying. More so I'm sure for my partners... although really my husband is the only one who seems to have trouble getting me there... Well, and me.Even with all of the cool new toys, I'll get close to orgasm and then I'll plateau and it's like my body shuts completely off. It's really a bitch.
2. Anyone else get a chance to see Hannibal Rising yet? OMG! If you get the chance I seriously think you should. Let's put it this way... I'm a serious movie critic. Every movie I see, I pick apart and utterly destroy. Either the actors are wrong or the scripting sucks, or god forbid, they went WAY under the budget a film of their intensity or hype would demand... But in this case, it made it's way PAST nearly every other movie I've EVER seen... and is only surpassed by the Labyrinth for my favorite film of all time. I already identified with the Hannibal character from Tom Harris's books, and of course the ensuing films. I thought "This looks okay, but nobody can outdo Hopkins. It Can't be done..." BOY WAS I WRONG... And now, the second name appearing on my 10 people I'd fuck no questions asked list... is Gaspard Ulliel. SO fucking hot... as to make me want to make an aggregious spelling error and say he is HOTT (with 2 Ts)... He may have won himself the TOP position... but Steve Buschemi will always be at the top of the list...
You know how awkward it is to be getting all hot and bothered with your mother-in-law sitting mere inches away? I'm just glad I don't have a bulge in my pants! (Poor Crash...) While the Labyrinth movie itself wasn't nearly as amazingly done, I have had a lifelong interlude with the characters, many of them earning permanent places in my subconscious. For example, Ludo pops up every once in a while when my dearest friends or closest family are in need of my emotional support. Hoggle comes out quite often nowadays with his nigh-reclusive self-centered manner. "Hoggle is HOGGLE's friend" kind of feelings. Sara as in the movie character, not so much. Don't get me wrong Jennifer Connelly is an okay actress, but let's face it... she's NOT Sara. I find myself liking the fanart and non-authorized literature much more than the film. It's not so much the movie that sits on that top rung for me, as it is the whole fantasy and embodiment of Froud's world that I love. ... That said, perhaps Hannibal Rising HAS taken the #1 place... Let's just say I had to take a hot bath, light some candles and play with my Chilly Willy...
Okay, I'm off for now. The real world (and a 3 hour drive to and from my DR) beckons... Wish me luck...
And WATCH THE MOVIE!
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Oh, and as far as the Cruise thing. I thnk you give me way too much credit. Do I really have better taste than that?