xviolentxbeautyx

LYRICS OF THE DAY

H.I.M (Drunk on Shadows)



UPDATE

Ive been a lil disgruntle this weekend.

Maybe it's PMS. Maybe Im just being a bitch.

Ok, so what. Im a bitch.

I get like this at times.

If you don't like it, what are you doing here?!

Fuckin Dumb ass!

First of all you would think I learned my lesson w/ the sparks.

You know don't drink more then 2 in any given 24 hrs!

Well friday night, I think I drank like 6.

Ahh BOOOO, Fuck that!

It puts me into hyper overload,

Makes me want to crash and burn,

Then keeps my mind running all night.

Which means I get no sleep.

We all know what that means............IM PISSED!



Lets not forget the Community Service I had saturday.

So running off of No sleep, a liquid crack hangover.

By 8 Im home in the shower already to go back to bed.

Unfrotunately I couldnt. So I lugged my ass up to Sotterly Mansion. With a donut tire, mind you.

Luckily for me, I was working volunteer sign in for the wine festival.

They placed me at the info booth and had me running around getting messages back and forth and relieveing people for breaks..... WOO FUCKIN WHOO!



So by time I get home, its 7:15. Im fuckin beat. First day in over a month I actually had to do some form of work. SHUT UP!

Im not used to it.

I passed out but about an hour into my nap, my mom and sisters and niece came in. So now, I was awake. We had a big sleep over. We watched movies, entertained the youngin, and fell asleep on the family room floor.

I woke up this morning, skie stole my bed.......... BED SNATCHER! haha

So I took trinas! hahah

Eventually we all got motivated, went to IHOP for breakfast. YUM French toast! Oh and I like chocolate milk! haha ufortunately, they ran out! O.M.G............W.T.F! haha Trina told the lady " well, someone better go to the store and get some nesquik" (sp?) haha.

After we did absolutely nothing, besides invade the halloween store, stare at kitties in the pet store window oh and search for the skate park! haha

We watched CKY and the HIM wideos. Took a nap. Thats about the gist of my weekend.



So your probably thinking, what ever does she have to be pissed off about?!



Well................

Check it, its like this!

My life sucks. Well, not tru the eyes of any onlookers. Thru mine, its hell!

There are certain things I need and want in my life.

Then there are certain things I dont.

I need a job, I need to be stable.

I need to get back on my feet.

I need to be able to depend on myself.

I have dreams, I have places I want to go, things I want to see, people I want to meet, things I need to do.

I need a social life.YES!

Drama....... I dont need it, nor do I want it.

I need to focus on myself, I need to get my life together.

I dont plan on sticking around here the rest of my life.

This is temporary, I have bigger plans for myself.

Its just, How do i get there?

I need help.

I need time, money, assurance..............

I need everything I cant have.

Im lost, Im losing faith, hope........

not in life, in myself.

It scares me.



This weekend, Is a big busy weekend. Unforunately, Im not sure if Im going to be able to take part and enjoy any of it. Friday Bleed the Dream will be in town playing at the Ottobar. I barely get to see or talk to those guys, if I do its once or twice a year. I thin one of my good myspace buddies is supposed to try and come to that show to hang out. We've been talking about ahnging out for a while, i dont want to miss it if she comes. Saturday CCS is playing in DC. Im in charge of their street team, Im supposed to make it to shows. Dumb ass me, stood the band up last time to go hang out with an asshole who soooooooooo wasnt worth that time. Im going to feel horriblei f I dont make it to this one. I have no job, another flat tire, and Im flat broke. Figures....... The one weekend I was looking forward to......... down the drain.

::crosses fingers for a miracle::

RANDOM THOUGHT

It's only premarital sex if you're going to get married.



RANDOM FUNNY!



PICTURES


Candid shots by a 5 year old!
For every picture Taylor had taken. She directed us how to pose. She would say " Ok, You do this (makes face which of coarse had a corresponding sound to go along with it), now, you go like this, and your going to be like this."










Questions of the Day!

1. . What flavor would your soul be if someone ate it? (Taken from Mercie.)

-I was orginally going for something feeze-dried. Then I changed my mind! Id say Grenadine.

2. When I say the word "people", what is your first reaction?

-Get on my nerves!

3. What is your favorite season, and what is your favorite thing to do during that season?

- Autumn, I LOVE IT! The changing of the leaves, the brisk breeze. The wind blowing thru your hair. I love exploring, hiking and finding trails to walk, and most of all going to Haunted Attractions........ I better get a visit in to the Mill this year. I havent missed going or getting lost on the way in like 6 years! haha