::Written while at work::
So I woke up this morning. With the most craziest idea ever. That I should
drive to KY this weekend. Its only 12 hours. and I said that if it was a
weekend and I could get there in a day.... Im there. Unfortunately, I must
be patient. Its just that The schedule is moving further and further
away. Who knows when things will come back around. Not to mention Who
knows what is going to happen with me and my mode of transportaion after
next month. Im stupid. I wish I didnt get myself into this situation. At
least my taxes are being taken care of. I have an extension until october.
Not to mention I can take care of the $600 insurance
lapse and just pay it
monthly, and just come up with a downpayment. ITs the $851 in parking
tickets I have! haahahahah. Im stupid. Im starting to freak out. I need
to get a second job. I would love if i could find something that would be
simple. weekend work. Something that wont take up all of my time. I dont
know. But I look at myself and tell myself I know what i have to do........
just grin it and bare it and do what i have to do.
So if anyone has any second job suggestions please let me know...... I need
some ideas. Otherwise im going back to the deep fiery depths of Duclaw.
Ive got a head ache now.
I dont know what I am going to. Who knows maybe Ill just take the second
job thing to keep myself busy. I need to cut my expenses. Especially since
jamie is moving out. I dont know what were going to do about TV and
Internet. The dish well........ I cant afford it and it will never get put
in my name. Not with this credit anyway. The internet I dont even know if
it will be able to go into my name. So who knows. I'll just go back to
the lifestyle of working 24/7 and not having a life, so I can afford to
live the one I have. Get my bills caught up and get ahead so that
then........ I can afford to take days off and take road trips and fly
places and do the things I want to do. ::shrugs shoulders:: Maybe!
Ive got chills thinking about it. I dont know what Im going to do. I can
deal with a minor stupid mistake that i made in judgement but everything
just snowballs. Now I have to work around other problems not even my own.
Ehhhhhh...... Im so fustrated.
I cant wait till I dont have a car payment and no stupid outrageous bills,
and I can just move out and have a place of my own. Something that I can
say is mine. Oh well ........
as for right now Im just going to live in the moment, and be happy.
Just to bad I cant go to KY. I guess ill just go to the BTD show and enjoy
myself.
I have all the time in the world and plans will be in the making and Ill be
with him again soon enough.......... For that id wait a life time. And I
dont care who knows it.
lol even if Im under stress......at least I have a reason to smile.
Ok now back to work.
That is what they pay me for.......
haha or to text all day!
::Quick recap::
Well I was the happiest girly around. FraggleRocker, Tattoo_my_dream, and Starry_eyed called me while I was at Duclaw. they surprised me with the offer of having a roadtrip buddy. I was soooo close to going to KY. Soooooo Close. Unfortunately after a long discussion and much given respect I have decided to stay home. Looks like Ill be going to the ottobar after all. ::Shrugs Shoulders:: Oh well, Im fine with it. Im actually more relaxed now too. even though theres still always going to be those lil doubts I have running thru the back of my mind.... I know they are normal. With that in mind. I appreciate all honesty and put forth all my patience. For I think its worth it. With all my heart.
Until then........
back to Orgazmo and the 2 and 3rd season of Viva la Bam.....
Night
So I woke up this morning. With the most craziest idea ever. That I should
drive to KY this weekend. Its only 12 hours. and I said that if it was a
weekend and I could get there in a day.... Im there. Unfortunately, I must
be patient. Its just that The schedule is moving further and further
away. Who knows when things will come back around. Not to mention Who
knows what is going to happen with me and my mode of transportaion after
next month. Im stupid. I wish I didnt get myself into this situation. At
least my taxes are being taken care of. I have an extension until october.
Not to mention I can take care of the $600 insurance
lapse and just pay it
monthly, and just come up with a downpayment. ITs the $851 in parking
tickets I have! haahahahah. Im stupid. Im starting to freak out. I need
to get a second job. I would love if i could find something that would be
simple. weekend work. Something that wont take up all of my time. I dont
know. But I look at myself and tell myself I know what i have to do........
just grin it and bare it and do what i have to do.
So if anyone has any second job suggestions please let me know...... I need
some ideas. Otherwise im going back to the deep fiery depths of Duclaw.
Ive got a head ache now.
I dont know what I am going to. Who knows maybe Ill just take the second
job thing to keep myself busy. I need to cut my expenses. Especially since
jamie is moving out. I dont know what were going to do about TV and
Internet. The dish well........ I cant afford it and it will never get put
in my name. Not with this credit anyway. The internet I dont even know if
it will be able to go into my name. So who knows. I'll just go back to
the lifestyle of working 24/7 and not having a life, so I can afford to
live the one I have. Get my bills caught up and get ahead so that
then........ I can afford to take days off and take road trips and fly
places and do the things I want to do. ::shrugs shoulders:: Maybe!
Ive got chills thinking about it. I dont know what Im going to do. I can
deal with a minor stupid mistake that i made in judgement but everything
just snowballs. Now I have to work around other problems not even my own.
Ehhhhhh...... Im so fustrated.
I cant wait till I dont have a car payment and no stupid outrageous bills,
and I can just move out and have a place of my own. Something that I can
say is mine. Oh well ........
as for right now Im just going to live in the moment, and be happy.
Just to bad I cant go to KY. I guess ill just go to the BTD show and enjoy
myself.
I have all the time in the world and plans will be in the making and Ill be
with him again soon enough.......... For that id wait a life time. And I
dont care who knows it.
lol even if Im under stress......at least I have a reason to smile.
Ok now back to work.
That is what they pay me for.......
haha or to text all day!
::Quick recap::
Well I was the happiest girly around. FraggleRocker, Tattoo_my_dream, and Starry_eyed called me while I was at Duclaw. they surprised me with the offer of having a roadtrip buddy. I was soooo close to going to KY. Soooooo Close. Unfortunately after a long discussion and much given respect I have decided to stay home. Looks like Ill be going to the ottobar after all. ::Shrugs Shoulders:: Oh well, Im fine with it. Im actually more relaxed now too. even though theres still always going to be those lil doubts I have running thru the back of my mind.... I know they are normal. With that in mind. I appreciate all honesty and put forth all my patience. For I think its worth it. With all my heart.
Until then........
back to Orgazmo and the 2 and 3rd season of Viva la Bam.....
Night