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I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

.....


I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

....

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life


Its been a rainy day. I figure I should get up and enjoy the rest of the afternoon. Posibly do something productive like update this, and make some food!

Ive been awake since 7am. This automatic alarm clock thingy in my head now is kinda fucked up! Every morning I hear the sounds of Raining Blood in my head! haha

So yesterday was like the best april fools day ever. It was total prank wars at work. Everytime you turned around someone was taking someone stuff and turning things upside down or inside out! So we taotally got my boss with the post its Idea. She left them there all day. She said that where ever she goes in her office and has a thought at least she can write it down!

Then she had me make up this whole story and call her husband. I told him I was calling from the mortgage company on theire loan for refinancing with theire second property and that he provided false information and can face a 10,000 fine or 5 years jail time. It was great!

I came home took a nap. Went to the Vault. Saw some people I used to work with at the Law Firm. Hung out with some friends. It was good to see A.Sub play again. Even if the crowd sucked. Then Angie, Krysten and myself headed over to Sonar for a hot second. I had a few beers, and just sat and chilled. THen i decided, it was time to go. SO I payed my tab, took a shot and left.

Then I saw Auriane and Sean! I was like OMG. If I so knew they were going to be there I would have made plans to stay and get stoopid! haha

Well on the way home. Im drving on 695. Theres 3 lanes and 3 cars. Im in the middle the car to my right speeds up and starts to hydro plan Does a 360 right in front of me and the car to my right. We had to slam on our brakes....... and he car spun until the back end of it hit the jersey wall in the middle of the belt way and you could just see the back end raise up and get crushed in towards the car. .........So I did my good deed for the day and called 911. That was kinda scary.

I wokeup this morning and talked to Tattoo_my_dream about tons of stuff. We have come to realized we have officially known each other for a long long time! About 4 years or so! Its official were getting old!

I did my obssessive Sat morning work out routine, and then layed in bed and watched movie while it rained.

Now im going to get up and possibly go run around do some errands and get some promotional stuff accomplished.

I'm out.


Pic from yesterday........