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Why is it everything i do or say is wrong, or not good enough.
Im like a fuckin plague everything I touch turns to shit.
Why do I even bother trying or putting to much thought into shit that it makes me sick.

Mother Theresa Complex, I know, I know.

Thank you Starry_eyed for helping me enjoy my evening and for great conversation.

I <3 U



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Edit to adding up
Im back at the house. Very uneventful but yet interesting evening. Did alot of driving and alot of thinking. I dont know if its the lack of sleep or if its my anxiety acting up again. Ive been shook up. My stomachs been in knots, and my head is fuckin killin me dude.

I have fuckin issues. I think to damn much.
I just want to pause and rewind.
I need my train of thought back.
my self control
I need to be able to live my life and focus on
my priorities without distractions.

Its so hard for me to put my actual thoughts into text. atleast in a way that people would understand without being offended.

Dude fuck this I cant deal im going to spontaneously combust.
The word of the day is FRIENDS.

FUCKIN A ............ AHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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Just a lil quick update.

Im in the midst of getting ready ( Yes Im undressed!) I wanted to do this before I forgot! haha I have to pack the rest of my things. Hopefully I wont forget anything.
Then im heading off to go pick up Mercie and most likely go hang out with Starry_eyed at Dennys. Tomorrow I leave for New York.

I hope that everyone has a Happy Holiday!





* Im afraid I'll never amount up to whatever it is your looking for*