there's just too many bottles between who we call friends
Im going to miss all of you *tear*
IF you want my contact info, shoot me a message.
Its that time. To power off my computer and start loading everything to my car.
Theres one more place I have to go in the next hour
before i leave.... good ol fuckin essex. 2-1.
......Why is...
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Im going to miss all of you *tear*
IF you want my contact info, shoot me a message.
Its that time. To power off my computer and start loading everything to my car.
Theres one more place I have to go in the next hour
before i leave.... good ol fuckin essex. 2-1.
......Why is...
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Another moment of taking time from doing nothing!
Im sitting at work.... well as usual.
Im back to the point of working on correcting dictation.
I did that first thing this morning.
So, Im a lil ahead of the game today.
Im kinda hyper and hocked up on mydol.
Took 5 pills already. Yeah, its sad. Yet fun.
TRY IT!
Yeah Its been the hi-light...
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Im sitting at work.... well as usual.
Im back to the point of working on correcting dictation.
I did that first thing this morning.
So, Im a lil ahead of the game today.
Im kinda hyper and hocked up on mydol.
Took 5 pills already. Yeah, its sad. Yet fun.
TRY IT!
Yeah Its been the hi-light...
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Nothing. I'm drawing a blank. It's gone. There was a time, I could think of
anything
And write for hours. Now I search for a purpose. A purpose for life,
creation, for being.
It's all empty. Spacious, open, and yet still dark. Images are reflected
in my mind. They're fake. All of them. The pictures a split moment in
time to capture memories your afraid...
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anything
And write for hours. Now I search for a purpose. A purpose for life,
creation, for being.
It's all empty. Spacious, open, and yet still dark. Images are reflected
in my mind. They're fake. All of them. The pictures a split moment in
time to capture memories your afraid...
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mercie:
Living is a lose-lose situation.
xo
xo
Things have been wierd lately.
Dont know whats going to be accomplished.
Im still trying to get the last of my stuff down here.
If i had a truck it would be much easier, but i dont.
So like me to take the hardway out of everything.
Yesterday was Ozzfest. Was on my way back home (S. MD)
Was like 25 minutes away, my tire...
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Dont know whats going to be accomplished.
Im still trying to get the last of my stuff down here.
If i had a truck it would be much easier, but i dont.
So like me to take the hardway out of everything.
Yesterday was Ozzfest. Was on my way back home (S. MD)
Was like 25 minutes away, my tire...
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2 weeks left till i move.
Time is going by too fast.
So lets hang out while I can.
Im going to miss all of you. *tear*
Also I have new contact info.....
shoot me a message
I might give it to you
TOnight - fletchers
Tomorrow night- Sonar
Time is going by too fast.
So lets hang out while I can.
Im going to miss all of you. *tear*
Also I have new contact info.....
shoot me a message
I might give it to you
TOnight - fletchers
Tomorrow night- Sonar
I probably going to seem MIA to quite a few people... as If i didnt already.
Im having a really really really bad day. As if I didnt wake up 3 times in the middle of the night with fuckin nightmares and no one to turn to for comfort.
Which I know Its still there. I just cant do it. Not now, not after putting...
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Im having a really really really bad day. As if I didnt wake up 3 times in the middle of the night with fuckin nightmares and no one to turn to for comfort.
Which I know Its still there. I just cant do it. Not now, not after putting...
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Got the new N.I.N and the Armour For Sleep CD.......
New music makes me happy!
"Car Underwater"
Believe the news, I'm gone for good.
Call off the search, no one will know that I'm down here
Believe the note I left for you
You can't turn back the clocks, you can't pull me up from here so don't try
I'm in a car underwater with...
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New music makes me happy!
"Car Underwater"
Believe the news, I'm gone for good.
Call off the search, no one will know that I'm down here
Believe the note I left for you
You can't turn back the clocks, you can't pull me up from here so don't try
I'm in a car underwater with...
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mercie:
Nope, never ends.
If you ever find peace let me know where it is.
♥
If you ever find peace let me know where it is.
♥
tattoo_my_dream:
you got the idea for that cd from me! hahahahhahahhaha
I do not like moments of depression
I do not like Good bands that break up
I do not like having to move and leave my life and friends behind.
I dont like liars.
I hate doctors.
I hate not knowing.
I hate giving blood.
I do not like taking pills.
I do not like them in a car
I do not like them near...
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I do not like Good bands that break up
I do not like having to move and leave my life and friends behind.
I dont like liars.
I hate doctors.
I hate not knowing.
I hate giving blood.
I do not like taking pills.
I do not like them in a car
I do not like them near...
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Lets get drunk
and get naked.
That is all!
and get naked.
That is all!
mercie:
i am drunk
and HALF naked
brad and panites?
drunk is the main concern here.
HEART
and HALF naked
brad and panites?
drunk is the main concern here.
HEART
What the fuck is wrong with you?
What are you thinking?
I hope you know, your really fuckin stupid
you know that, dont you?
Why do you sit there and walk around
with a smile on your face?
Why do you act like everythings ok?
You know its not?
Is this really what you expected?
Is it what you wanted?
Are you happy now?
Is...
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What are you thinking?
I hope you know, your really fuckin stupid
you know that, dont you?
Why do you sit there and walk around
with a smile on your face?
Why do you act like everythings ok?
You know its not?
Is this really what you expected?
Is it what you wanted?
Are you happy now?
Is...
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xricox:
Hey, It was nice meeting you earlier this week. You ladies are a funny bunch. Too bad i wasn't able to hang out longer.
Next time, i guess. Feel better.
Next time, i guess. Feel better.
jamielee:
<3 Let me know if you need anything.
Disclosure: THIS IS A RANT! I am not using this with malicious intent toward anyone. Im in a ranting mood, and Ranting is what Im going to do........IF you dont like it, then why are you here???
"Youll find a new and better one."
I've never been so insulted in all my life.
How can someone who has no "Right" say something
so insensitive, and...
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"Youll find a new and better one."
I've never been so insulted in all my life.
How can someone who has no "Right" say something
so insensitive, and...
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mineux:
I know exactly how you are feeling, ive been there, currently, im numb and dealing, but here is some help... Its the poem that always snaps me back, even just a little...
IF
If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you
But make allowance for their doubting too,
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dream--and not make dreams your master,
If you can think--and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings--nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much,
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And--which is more--you'll be a Man, my son!
--Rudyard Kipling
IF
If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you
But make allowance for their doubting too,
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dream--and not make dreams your master,
If you can think--and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings--nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much,
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And--which is more--you'll be a Man, my son!
--Rudyard Kipling
mercie:
well i guess that's why that lyrics is appropriate... no courage. you're leaning towards the existentialist point of view in life it seems. good. it's probably the only true point of view to have, since nothing is ever proven, and no one knows shit about life until they're dead, and how's that helping us? you know the saying, life's a bitch and then you die!
♥
♥
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I...
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I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I...
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Yeah, I hope I enjoy Baltimore, too. I've had enough of DC.
And yes, I am so happy that my mom is recovering!