ek. its been a while since i posted. so i think ill cross post
so its been a year. since i ve been on my own. yeah i know i was living with my dad last summer, but i was taking care of myself.
its strange. i dont know if this has been the best year, or the worst.
most likely the worst.
ive changed. alot. more than most of you know. ive grown apart from some, and closer to others. Im figuring out whats wrong with me (which happens to be alot) and im trying my hardest to fix them. i definately know im not the same person any more. and alot of people dont know me any more. not many did to begin with.
ive waded thru alot of bull shit to get where i am today. and i dont know if im thru it all yet or not. these next few months are going to fun, but really really hard.
i do know, im not finished figuring out who i am. there are so many things i want to do in life, and i cant have my life in the cookie cutter perfection others want me to. ive never been a cookie cutter perfect anything. im far from that. im like a little piece of dough that was flung at the wall and landed in the pan that was going in to the oven. and thats where i am right now. im in the oven. im finally growing in to what i will be for the rest of my life. and its scarey
im almost 20. thats a number that means im no longer a teenager. thats a number that when i say it people will look at me differntly than before. people will give me more resposibility, and respect. And is it the number that changes all of it?
no. its been this past year. all the hardships, and the difficulties. those re the things that have made me ready to be the age of 20. the age to where im not a teeneager any more.
and all of it is too soon. and im really scared.
so its been a year. since i ve been on my own. yeah i know i was living with my dad last summer, but i was taking care of myself.
its strange. i dont know if this has been the best year, or the worst.
most likely the worst.
ive changed. alot. more than most of you know. ive grown apart from some, and closer to others. Im figuring out whats wrong with me (which happens to be alot) and im trying my hardest to fix them. i definately know im not the same person any more. and alot of people dont know me any more. not many did to begin with.
ive waded thru alot of bull shit to get where i am today. and i dont know if im thru it all yet or not. these next few months are going to fun, but really really hard.
i do know, im not finished figuring out who i am. there are so many things i want to do in life, and i cant have my life in the cookie cutter perfection others want me to. ive never been a cookie cutter perfect anything. im far from that. im like a little piece of dough that was flung at the wall and landed in the pan that was going in to the oven. and thats where i am right now. im in the oven. im finally growing in to what i will be for the rest of my life. and its scarey
im almost 20. thats a number that means im no longer a teenager. thats a number that when i say it people will look at me differntly than before. people will give me more resposibility, and respect. And is it the number that changes all of it?
no. its been this past year. all the hardships, and the difficulties. those re the things that have made me ready to be the age of 20. the age to where im not a teeneager any more.
and all of it is too soon. and im really scared.
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