It's funny how it seems that life never quite works out the way you expect it to. At least thats how I feel about it. It seems that no matter where I am, no matter how good or bad things are; things just never go quite where I anticipate. And I mean in some cases it works out for the better, but not always. If you asked me 10 years ago where I saw myself right now; what I would describe to you would be very far off from what my life has amounted to this far. Shit, if you asked me a year ago it wouldn't be anything like it is.
This are constantly changing. Everything is constantly changing. 2 previous times in my life I was with someone that I thought I was going to marry. The first time was a very unhealthy destructive relationship that went on for far too long and that I still carry far too many scars from. The other is a more interesting story, I felt far more strongly about how that one was going to end up, but that fell apart too (because of the person the fore mentioned relationship turned me into, but that is a story for another time) and for the longest time I tried to fix the situation and nothing would change my mind that she was the girl I was going to marry. But these days when I see her she actually kinda annoys me, hahaha. Part of me still loves her, a big part, but it's different, and it's still a little weird to me not being with her, but it's different, and that's just life, changing in a way I would never have foreseen.
And here I am in a relationship I never saw coming, with someone I never would have guessed I would end up with. And that aside the story thus far for her and I has had it's share of twists and turns that I never would have expected (some good, some bad, one very bad...), but that's life; and that's my point. You live and you learn. And you gotta roll with the punches, and adapt to the ever changing situations.
I've found that life is a lot easier if you stop trying to anticipate everything and just accept the fact that you have no control. Just sit back and TRY to enjoy the ride (when you can) wherever it takes you...
This are constantly changing. Everything is constantly changing. 2 previous times in my life I was with someone that I thought I was going to marry. The first time was a very unhealthy destructive relationship that went on for far too long and that I still carry far too many scars from. The other is a more interesting story, I felt far more strongly about how that one was going to end up, but that fell apart too (because of the person the fore mentioned relationship turned me into, but that is a story for another time) and for the longest time I tried to fix the situation and nothing would change my mind that she was the girl I was going to marry. But these days when I see her she actually kinda annoys me, hahaha. Part of me still loves her, a big part, but it's different, and it's still a little weird to me not being with her, but it's different, and that's just life, changing in a way I would never have foreseen.
And here I am in a relationship I never saw coming, with someone I never would have guessed I would end up with. And that aside the story thus far for her and I has had it's share of twists and turns that I never would have expected (some good, some bad, one very bad...), but that's life; and that's my point. You live and you learn. And you gotta roll with the punches, and adapt to the ever changing situations.
I've found that life is a lot easier if you stop trying to anticipate everything and just accept the fact that you have no control. Just sit back and TRY to enjoy the ride (when you can) wherever it takes you...