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WOW!!! My shrink must have put my dad in his place, not only did he not throw me out, but he is paying for college...im so relieved, and happy, it was a painful journey to get that out of him, but it was worth it! He has major control issues, and I refuse to let him walk all over me, He does it to my mom and brother all the time. Thats why I fought wiht him so much growing up. I wasn't scared of him. I've seen him make my mother and brother cry on way to many of an occasion. I wouldnt let him have that kind of power in our father/son relationship. When we were in family councelling I was the only one who would bring up what he did, and my brother and mother would just sit there and kind of nod. Well, to compare us to a wolf pack: the Alpha felt that I was a threat, and hence made me the Omega. But as it often is, the Omega becomes the next Alpha. While I dont want to control my family, I WILL controll my own life.

Sorry for the rant...when I get going its hard for me to stop. And I probably shouldnt post all this shit about my past/my problems, but I dont know, Im going to..... Balls out, No Regrets.......Thats the only way to live