xspityououtx

you ever feel like someone is hurting you.My emotional cuts are so deep that i feel nothing.I want to marry him, he is my soulmate.i know he is and it hurts that he gets so angry at me. I would die for this man.I don't understand whyy he is so scared of "this",us loving one another so much.I'm never gona leave him he is my life.i can't even function, i can't eat or stop crying.He doesn't trust me, and its not fair cause i have done nothing to ever hurt him.He is so afraid of being the one fucked over,and loving girls and losing them.But he doesn't understand that this is killing me.I threw up last night i was so emotionaly distraught and like the pain isn't going away,its just so painful.I can't stop cryying.Last night i thought i lost him and i was about to drive my car into a tree,like to me there was no point to try ,no point for me to carry on.I felt so hollow i didn't care about my school or my job or having babies or getting married or my friends.Because if my life wasn't with him it just wouldn't be worth living.He is my everything,god put me on this earth for him.He has so many dark demons inside him,and i don't know how to handle it.He doesn't let me in or tell me why he is like this.He needs to open up with me and tell me EVERYTHING in his past because i don't know what to do anymore.you ever watch romance movies and u sigh at them and say " its just a movie that would never happen in real life".Well that feeling that you get when u watch that movie,its REAL.It does happen,and if you lose ur soulmate the pain you feel is endless and it goes on forever...and that pain i'm not prepared to take i'd rather die alone