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this past week has been wonderful my b/f loves me so much.We both don't have a pool so it was 4 th of july weekend, and we both wanted to go to the beach.Until we realized that the beach is gona be packed so we decided it wasn't worth it.Because my b/f is so amazing he rented a hotel room at the hilton so we could use the pool, and the hottub. he is so wonderful. I can't believe he did that for me.I never have people go out of there way for me,and thats all he does is go out of his way. Yesterday was pretty emotional day he was having a bad day so what i did was i rented "chasing amy" for us to watch.He always told me to watch that movie and when i did it hit me so hard. He was so sweet during it holding my hand and rubbing my fingers.:::sighs:: That movie really hit me strong because it delt exacty how i feel. I feel that because i had such a crazy past that everyone considers me a slut and a whore. Which most of them do... except for eric.I really am not like that anymore and no one really see's me for me .Eric and i love eachother more then words can say.And i'm so glad he saw past my bullshit, and forgave my past.I really have never been with someone who completes me so perfect,we bicker alot but over stupid pety shit.I think everyone can see how right we are for one another. I was looking into his eyes this morning just thinking how beautiful he looks and how lucky i am. When i look at him sometimes i litterly can't take a breath.His perfect feautures and breath taking brown eyes just eat me up.When he smiles i can feel it surge through me like a bolt of lighting.He gives me the world at my fingertips. And he is that one person that just feel right. My protector the one that keeps me sane and completes me. Now that i have found him it kinda scares me a little bit.I wasn't expecting this.But usually no one ever does. I want a life with him and i hope he does too.I'm more concious of everything that i do all the time which is a good thing. Cause usually my "fuck it" attitude ruins everything.I truthfully always settled for what was laid out in front of me, but now i'm not settling.I have found the best and i'm never letting it go. I am so hand's over feet for this boy. I always wanted to be in the driver's seat with realtionships but this time i'm letting him take the wheel, because i know i am in good hands.He talks about the future alot and it makes me so encredibly happy.He says there isn't a set time limit to get married and have kids .He says when the time is right we'll know.I have total faith in him and his decisons with his life. And if he includes me in it ,it will be amazing.Even though he may act like he'd wait forever i think deep down he wants what i want.Just i know ,he thinks things out through he doesn't jump into things with out thinking. That is a great trait to have because i lack it which is why this is so perfect. I just hope i get my "happily ever after"....instead of a "chasing amy".