I have been here a long while and it feels strange leaving. I feel like Suicide Girls left me though. Clearly Suicide Girls decided it had to change everything about itself that I had grown to love. Yes, of course the same women are still here...or at least many of them are. However, the new brand that Suicide Girls wants to be is just the nude version of Maxim Magazine to me. I find that disgusting. What I loved was seeing real women being themselves on here. They could show off their unique taste, their personal style. It wasn't just one type of person who was displayed on this site. If anything I was looking forward to Suicide Girls being a movement for accepting a wider variety of women from all walks of life who were beautiful in their own way, even though they might not fit into a traditional category of what is considered the "look" by current fashion standards.
This is NOT where the site has gone. Instead, now I see women on here who are the exact style that is considered the cultural standard of beautiful in every kind of media across the United States. It isn't unique or trendsetting. It is copycatting or just jumping on the corporate bandwagon. To be fair, perhaps with the original style of Suicide Girls becoming much more understood by Mainstream America, the site really didn't have many choices. It is possible, I suppose, that they are currently victims of their own success. They proved their point, and whether or not they are financially successful (I don't know if they are or not, and it has nothing to do with the point I am making) Suicide Girls is creatively floundering. That is my personal opinion.
What I have written blogs about in the past (now gone and not searchable) is that I wanted this site to have all the networking capacity of Facebook, but with the unique personality I had grown to love -defined by having no holds barred as far as what you could do and say...None of the hiding your sexuality that you have to do on all the other social networking sites...You could just say here, "I like tits that looks like this," and then post a picture. Nothing had to be censored! You just couldn't deliberately stir shit up or pick a fight with someone. Fair enough! -Then the "New Site" came along, and pretty much all the uniqueness and personality of the site disappeared for me. You couldn't separate your friends from your faves. You have to submit to "following" someone instead of just being an equal and befriending them. I personally object to calling what I do with anyone on this site "following" them. I compare notes. I have conversations. I am not a pathetic follower. I am me.
Other functionality of the site has been lost too. It is incredibly difficult to find any old photos of people now inactive. Hopefuls don't have their own easily searched section. It is a ridiculously circuitous series of clicks just to try to get a person's photo sets to come up all at once. When you do, each view takes MUCH longer to actually appear on your screen than it ever did before. There really isn't a single thing about the new site I like. I can't think of anything I like better at all!
It is because of the change to the new site that I am leaving Suicide Girls forever. They abandoned what I cared about and very obviously couldn't care less what I think. Have we grown apart? I guess so. I still am a unique person who wants a full profile that gives me as much chance to get my personality across as possible. Three choices for my pigeonholes? Fuck you, Suicide Girls! I continue to defy categories while you just sold out and decided to accept whatever the mass media says people are supposed to accept this week. Stop trying to be mainstream, Suicide Girls, it looks ugly on you.
There is so much more I could say, but the last few blogs I have written have gotten a mix of responses and it just adds to all the unnecessary drama that I am not looking for more of in my life. That kind of cattiness and people acting like this is a popularity contest is why I am leaving. I value and respect people who can't help but be individuals. I love people who have their own look and their own opinion. When this site left those people behind they left me behind. So there...I will miss Mary, who was the one I signed up for in 2004. I have had so many other friends and favorites on here. I still love and talk to Feyne. She was always so original in every set that it astounded me. There are so many other people I will miss that I hope no one is offended if I don't mention them specifically. If I mention one person then I will feel bad for not mentioning another...One thing I will say about Feyne though, is that sets should be works of art the way hers were.
Undoubtedly someone will disagree with something I said here and try to make a big deal about it, but thank God I don't have to care. I am not about drama. I have my own opinion and you have yours. Fine. Live and let live. I will go my way and you go yours. Suicide Girls is not for me anymore. They had so many chances to be what I hoped for in a site like this. They never quite got there, but for awhile they were close. I don't know of any other site that I think is what Suicide Girls almost was. It seems to me that now they are just a flashy front with nothing behind it. The women I see on the front page being promoted all look alike to me now. It is harder than ever to read anything original that someone has written or to find the things people are doing on here to be really themselves. Instead the site is all organized to present everyone as a product in a shiny plastic package. Suicide Girls doesn't seem to want us to be who we are, instead we have to be who THEY want us to be. Well, I will not submit to that. I am not a sheep, and I am not a follower. So goodbye to my FRIENDS and my FAVES alike, and here is remembering another time, not so very long ago, when this site was still cool.
