xreiderx

don't ask just trust. i remember those words escaping your lips. i know you'd never want to mutter those words to me again...you had me...hook...line...and sinker. i fell for every word. not one of those words were a moment too soon...or too late. my friends saw through you. i only wish i could have.

"every little kiss and grin you gave...was just a little bullshit i saw through..."

so i made mistakes. by not wearing my heart on my sleeve. i won't apologize. because for the first time in a long time i kept to myself. i didn't offer everything i had all at once. i was biding time. who knew that time would screw me in the long run. you swore that nothing would ever change. i guess you lied.

"i'll be your cheap novelty...blow your brains out on me..."

if i pause and think back...earlier this summer...i smile in regret...everytime... shall i steal the words straight from matt's mouth...i salivated over you...i had you believing that i really cared about the life you lead. i don't. never did. to me you're like a scene in a movie...just one of many...and through time you ended up on the cutting room floor.

"don't worry...i promise...someday you'll feel whole..."

i look up to the sky and pray that this is goodbye. not because i hate you. but because i can't ever be the person you once thought i was.

"there was a time when you were a friend to me...i think those times i was probably just drunk..."

its hard to carry on. this veneer has become too fake. this mask is unrecognizable. lost somewhere inside are the remains of who i used to be. buried deep with regret are the moments that make up the last few years of my life. digging a shallow grave with my own words...

maybe its time i stop talking...