hey,
sorry for being quiet, but I have been having the worst time of my life ever... since summer everything has been shit and last 5 weeks have been the worst in my life, I think even living my ex was more easier than this.... Not having luck in anything,plus so so so much at the uni, but that is the only thing which is keeping my head busy,well if the things are going right. I have broken down twice this week, not sure what I am going to do, but not sure if I can handle much more... I've even made my tutor cry with me and he is a guy...
I am not doing modelling anymore, fuck it! I am not pretty girl who wants to be pretty all the time... I grow up between dudes listening heavy music. Pin up can be part of me but that is not me...getting rid of my clothes as I have far too many non of it properly used,what is the point of it...Specially costumes and stuff for modelling.... I am always on the move and moving around with all the useless stuff.... no i want to live easy life with the things I need....
It was nice time and I've met lovely people but it is time to move on or move back. I am going back to me roots to the girl I used to be - happy hardcore girl wearing baggy clothes...fucking straight edge... I can not imagine to live better life...
I have problem to deal with people lately as there is no person for me to talk,better say nobody I want to talk and spend some time with... always on my own,always on the move...this is what I am...it is time for me to change my way of living...
sorry for being quiet, but I have been having the worst time of my life ever... since summer everything has been shit and last 5 weeks have been the worst in my life, I think even living my ex was more easier than this.... Not having luck in anything,plus so so so much at the uni, but that is the only thing which is keeping my head busy,well if the things are going right. I have broken down twice this week, not sure what I am going to do, but not sure if I can handle much more... I've even made my tutor cry with me and he is a guy...
I am not doing modelling anymore, fuck it! I am not pretty girl who wants to be pretty all the time... I grow up between dudes listening heavy music. Pin up can be part of me but that is not me...getting rid of my clothes as I have far too many non of it properly used,what is the point of it...Specially costumes and stuff for modelling.... I am always on the move and moving around with all the useless stuff.... no i want to live easy life with the things I need....
It was nice time and I've met lovely people but it is time to move on or move back. I am going back to me roots to the girl I used to be - happy hardcore girl wearing baggy clothes...fucking straight edge... I can not imagine to live better life...
I have problem to deal with people lately as there is no person for me to talk,better say nobody I want to talk and spend some time with... always on my own,always on the move...this is what I am...it is time for me to change my way of living...
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aba:
aww, hugs im free for a coffee if you wanna meet up 
ah wish I saw this first before sent u mess on other site.
ah wish I saw this first before sent u mess on other site.
veganjihad:
that sucks, but sometimes we get to these moments in our lives where everything falls apart. I know you know that ive gone through the same. keep your head above water, it will likely get better soon..