xplosiveunit

5 things that scare me:

* being alone for a long amount of time. I need to be surrounded by people, for some odd reason. i can't be stuck in my house for hours alone, i feel empty and shut out.

*love scares me. not so much the happy parts of love, but the sad and threatening parts of love. like, "what if this happened?". you're giving so much of yourself that the other person can use to hurt you. but then you just have to give it up and pray everything goes right.

*death. i've seen too many deaths happen unexpectedly that were very close to me. i just hope i get to say some last words before i die....

*clowns. laugh at me all you want, i hate them. it's a childhood memory of las vegas and walking around and clowns reaching out to pull me towards their little game-station...ya know where you throw the darts and pop the balloons then you get a big stuffed alien head? i hated my parents for putting me through that torture.

*Alcohol. Yeah I drink, on occasion. but the reason alcohol scares me is because of the effect i've seen it do on a number of people. Abuse is not necessary, nor is it tolerated. At least not by me.