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so. i'm officially moving out now. i'm working on getting an apartment in ashland. i'll probably apply again at bath and body works.

things are going to be okay.
i'm going to be okay.
or atleast that's what i keep telling myself.

i didn't realize how scary this was going to be. and how hard. and how much people weren't going to understand.

my mom is really being supportive of me. she hasn't given me an opinion on whether its the right or wrong decision-- she's just letting me do what i want and helping me when i ask. i really, really appreciate that. she's not usually like that. it's a nice change.

adam is freaking out. he says i'm fucking him over. i don't know how. i've been faithful. i've been loyal. i've done what i could and loved him the best that i could. i guess it just hurts... not just because i'm leaving, but because i'm taking jake too. no matter how much i tell him that he can still see jake, he doesn't listen. it doesn't seem to sink in. he's looking for a reason to be angry... and i guess i can't blame him. i just wish we could be friends.

i'm looking forward to my freedom though. yes. freedom. god, it's been such a long time.