xopiperox

ok a while agoe.. i had a boyfriend problems.. he kinda drank and kinda kissed his x.. well ya know how it goes .. tears.. betrail..the relationship drama.. well i kinda feel like he may have told his brother about things and didnt tell me.. i dont really know how to ask him.. it happend about a month agoe..i think. the funny thing is the x i am tslking about was sopposed to shoot my first SG set... sucky huh?
I am becomming more and more like my old self.. constantly depressed, hating myself, hating everything around me. everything seems liek its a dream and i cant wake up.. i have been running away from that part of me for abotu a year and i cant win the race any more.. it really scares me.. the worst thing of all is my boyfriend wont even open up to me and tell me his problems.. i do believe the world is gonna come to an end.. and i wanna watch everyone burn...